time to let go before my volcano explodes.

time to let go before my volcano explodes.
yes, i am going to explode.
i am about to explode.
so if you add salt , pepper or whatsoever , YOU ARE DEAD.
i tell you, YOU ARE DEAD.
so let me update you about what the heck is happening right now.

firstly, you.
bloody idiot.
stop trying to mess my life.
so what if i am not popular ?
why the heck do you care if i am not ? 
i don't care whether you are popular or not.
just keep your ass some where else.
i would really appreciate it.
bitch, GET LOST.
it is not freaking necessary for you to tell the whole world.
just shut up.
keep those stuff to yourself.
go and bother someone else's life.
not mine.
don't play a fool with me.
if you are so fucking lonely then go grab a guy from a street and fuck him okay ?
be happy.
and seriously, FUCK OFF YOU BITCH.

secondly, you.
another idiot.
i don't know what the heck to say about you anymore.
i don't get why is she still holding on unto this shit when she knows this is not going anywhere ?
just let it go !
look at what he does !
he is such a disgrace.
i don't know who ever gave him a compliment before.
everyone hates him.
including me.
you were never a good example, so what do you want me to learn from you ?
you want me to learn the shit that you do ?
be a disgrace to my own family ?
everyone doesn't even respect you.
the work of your hands make other people lose trust in you.
i have lost it many years ago.
you are a person who will never gain respect from anyone.
anyone at all.
you always ask me to look for your stuff and when i don't find it, you blame me.
if you knew this was going to happen, then go look for it yourself.
stop dragging me into your shit and destroying my day.
you are heartless.
you never put love and care to the things that you do.
neither do you love the people around you.
you never did.
the person you only love is yourself.
you are so rich now you don't care about anyone else but yourself.
seriously ?
can't you see that she needs help ?
no , you are blind.
somehow you just can't see things that you need to see.
you are so into you and you only.
nothing else.
i never saw you doing anything that benefits another person.
seriously.
i never did.
so selfish.
i can't take the fact that i am a part of you.
i really can't .
i kept on questioning God, why me ?
i really want to know the reason why i am going through this.

thirdly, you.
i don't know what to say to you.
all i want you to know is that i am greatly disappointed in you.
i don't know why this is happening.
i am going through things that i don't need to go through.
you were never ever there for me.
thanks alot.


exams are coming.
i never touched a single book nor read a single word.
i don't give a damn about the monthly test.
just want to be done with it.
due to the complaints from the mum's of my classmates.
we have another teacher coming in to teach uus modern maths.
i ain't happy.
i really ain't happy.
why want to complain ?
we already know the reason why there are no substitute teachers !
it is cause the government is not going to send anymore teachers to our school !
don't you people understand english or what ?
then there was another day when i came into the class.
it was so messy and pissed me off.
there were some stuff stuck unto the walls of our class.
even below the whiteboard.
why is the afternoon section teacher doing all these nonsense and making our class look like a class in kindergarden.
this is not a funny matter.
the things keep on falling off and we need to pick up all those nonsense.
if it gets on my nerve one day, i am gonna burn them all.
then there are teachers who enters our class and i don't understand a single thing he / she is teaching !
it's like they are talking in alien language !
sometimes in malay, sometimes in english.
in out exams when we answer in both languages, you give us a big cross !
don't you teachers know that that is how you teach us ?
that's the way you teach us, that's the way we answer.

so yeah.
as you can see, i am really on fire.
i can really burst anytime soon.
so leave me alone.
stay out of my way.
stop putting your ass into my world.
get lost.

thanks for dropping by.

<3,
miss awesome.