The Only Name,

after such a long time, i finally felt this feeling again.
the joy that was in me was unexplainable.
that connection between me and Him was so bad.
and today during worship, i felt Him touch my heart.
i longed for that feeling.
He gave me the assurance that He is going to be there whenever i need Him.
i know He will always be there for me no matter what happens.
His love never fails.
i love Him so much, more than anything in this world.

let creation sing.

The whole earth overflowing,
with your power and your glory.
There is no one like you God
There is no one like you God

Mountains bow,
nations tremble,
at your feet we cry holy.
There is no one like you God
There is no one like you God

Let creation sing of the risen King,
let the universe resound.
With a shout of love,
we will give to you,
all the highest praise.

Let your light shine upon us,
let your light shine upon us.
For the glory of your name,
will be over all the earth.

Let creation sing of the risen King,
let the universe resound.
With a shout of love,
we will give to you,
all the highest praise.

Forever,Forever,I'll Sing.

the only name.

Your name is higher and exalted
far above everything that has name
Your name's the only name Jesus
by which all men can be saved

Your name is a strong tower
I run to you when I'm safe
my greatest on the Lord is to speak Your name

Jesus, My Lord Jesus Emmanuel
You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold You

Your name is a strong tower
I run to you when I'm safe
my greatest on the Lord is to speak Your name

Jesus, My Lord Jesus Emmanuel
You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold You

You've covered me, delivered me
Lord I have set my love on You
i dwell within Your secret place
under shadows mighty God


how great is our God.

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

worthy is the lamb.

Thank you for the cross, Lord.
Thank you for the price you paid.
Bearing all my sin and shame, in love you came
And gave Amazing Grace.
Thank you for the scares, Lord.
Thank you for the nail-pierced hands.
Wash me in Your cleansing flow, now all I know...
Your forgiveness and embrace.

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne.
We crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious!
High and lifted up
Jesus, Son of God.
The darling of Heaven, crucified...
Worthy is the Lamb.


with all i am.

into your hand
i commit again
all I am
for you lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever
I will worship
I will worship you forever

my favourite song :)

lead me to the cross.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemption's hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

all these songs mean so much.
God is really really awesome.
without Him, i will be nothing.
He always leads me to the right path.
He speaks to me when i need Him.
He answers my prayers.
He is everything that i need.
He is my God.
my one and only God i worship.

Lord, i really thank You for what You have given me for all these years. thank You for bringing me back into Your presence. i thank You so much. thank You. in Jesus' name i pray, AMEN!



let's see.
nothing much has happened.
i am just feeling so happy for what i have done.
i gave up my feelings for the guy that i have fallen in love with.
i am so proud to be single!
single life is awesome~
now is really not the time to date or anything like that.
i want to put my studies first.


i used to see all these couples together and wonder how come this beautiful woman is with such an ugly guy?
and why is this handsome guy is dating an ugly woman?
i have finally realised that love is not about your looks, your body shape or what so ever.
i want someone to love me for who i am and not for who i am not.
i am not a girl with chopstick legs or pretty eyes.
i am just who i am.
God created me in His image and i am proud of it!
yeah!

so that's it for today, will update again soon. :)

untitled.

untitled.
i don't know what to post about.
i feel so blank.
i am just staring at the laptop and wondering what to update about.

I've finished reading the romeo and juliet code.
it was awesome!
i loved it!
and my next mission is to buy 4 more books!
hooray!

so yeah.
that's about it i guess.


my dear brother,

don't always be so upset.
must keep on smiling!
you always say that there is no one there to listen to you.
there is.
there is always that one person who will always be there for you.
God is always there by your side.
anyways, i can always be your listener!
i am only a phone call away.
and don't worry, I'm not mad at you.
i understand how you feel.
just cool down and everything will be alright. :)

love,
your lil sis.

anything and everything.

it has been such a busy week and i haven't came online since i deactivated my facebook once again.
life without facebook is much better.
i prefer my life this way.

school?
let's see, my friends are all going crazy and i'm joining in!
we have been laughing non-stop everyday.
the teachers think we are crazy!
and yes, we are :)
i love being a part of this class.
they are all like my family. :)
there are competitions held.
and i joined the singing competition!
i was actually going solo, but then thank goodness i can partner with a friend of mine!
oh gosh, that is such a relieve!
we tried out our songs today and next week will be our competition.
i really really pray that we can go to the finals!
our competitiors are quite tough!
if you are currently reading this post, please pray for us!


life?
everything has been fine lately.
so far so good :D


i have nothing much to blog now.
just want my blog to stay alive!

i finally remembered what i wanted to post!

I've started to read novels again!
those novels i read are awesome!
so meaningful and so touching!

here are some books that I've read :












all these books are simply amazing!
my favourite was where rainbows end!
it was so nice!
the gift was very meaningful!



these are the books that i am going to read :






looking forward to reading both of the books!
i totally can't wait! :)


my next mission is to read books written by Nicholas Sparks. :)

that's all for now.
bye!

i am bored!

i actually have nothing to post.
i am just blogging for fun!
but now, i really need someone to talk to!
no one is entertaining me! :(

anyways, there is school tomorrow.
and i don't feel like going..
but i still have to go!
damn it.

so yeah.
bye!

i am exhausted~

i am so exhausted!
school is so frustrating!
that damn feeling you get when you have to wake up in the morning just to go to school!
can't i just sleep?


this few days were okay i guess.
except yesterday!
mr. mano's place was so cold i was freezing!
because of that and the cold weather this morning, i have a running nose.
wow.
ain't that just good?

got a new chemistry teacher.
i don't know whether to say she is good or she is terrible.
or maybe the chapter is just terrible.
ah.
i don't know.
so sickening.

i don't feel like blogging now.
i'm lazy.
will update more next time. :)

i lost faith in this feeling called 'love'.

i finally know what love is.
love is so fragile.
you can love someone and tell him or her that you will love him or her for the rest of your life.
then after a while, everything is just falling apart.
that is not even love.
i made a grave mistake.
a very big mistake.

there is no such thing as true love.
i don't believe in love anymore.
there is also no such thing as fairy tales.
i lost faith in this feeling called 'love'.

it's so hard to figure out what's happening.
even i don't know what to do.
i don't wanna keep my hopes high anymore.
cause i know it is gonna fail.
my heart aches because of what is happening right now.

is there still hope in this?
is there?
i hope there is.

my heart aches.

yes, i did a mistake.
no point trying to stay on the positive side.
things are falling apart.
badly.
i don't know what to do.
i am going to end up in pain and misery again.
AGAIN!
i regret for what i have done.

i don't know.

i don't know.
whether to believe or to lose my faith in this.
it's just so hard to go through this.
i hate it.
i hate it so much.

everything is mixed up.

many things had happened.
i don't know where to start.
all my feelings are mixed up.
love, hatred, happiness, sadness, and anger.


you always have no patience with us.
then you wanna get pissed off.
and you start scolding everyone although they have done nothing wrong.
it's you that is wrong!
why can't you realise that?
slap yourself man!
cause you're causing too many things to happen when they weren't suppose to be happening.
then you spoil every one's mood just because of what you did.
how nice is that?
it's not that we don't care about you.
we do, but you don't realise it.
you'll NEVER realise it.
i feel sad for her because she has been going through all these for so many years now.
i finally understand why you are acting this way.
i finally understood.
i hate you for not knowing that she was always there for you, always caring for what you need.
but you never ever did the same things for her.
YOU NEVER DID.
it's hard living with you, you know.
you always give us a hard time.
and that stresses me out!
i am sick of it!
when she told me the news, i was happy and also sad at the same time.
i knew how she felt years ago.
because of her compassion for you, knowing you will do something stupid, she chose to stay for the sake of her kids.
we weren't happy.
to see this happening.
we stopped them.
we did.
then slowly, as time goes by, you are just getting worst!
how can you be a proper example to us when you dun show any good things about yourself?
all we see is the bad side of yours.
and you always teach us about grace, but you have never shown grace to us.
which makes it so hard to accept.
sometimes i wish i could just kill you.
but it can't happen.


looking forward to this.
of course i am happy.
going to be another fun day after talking to them again.
kinda miss talking to them.
those times where we will laugh and laugh and have fun together.
so we went out for a walk.
i followed.
something told me it wasn't a good idea, but what else can i do?
stay there and rot??
so the journey started....
it was scary for me as the place was dark.
only a few street lights were on and the place was just creepy.
then here it goes.
so i was walking in front with Amelia and this guy, robin, was annoying me by steeping on my slippers.
man, do you have nothing else to do?
i got pissed off and told him off and so did the rest.
then he stopped.
on our journey back, he started again!
man, i was on fire!
he continued and no matter how many times i told him to stop, he didn't.
i felt like just taking him and throwing him into the drain nearby.
then, *plak* , my slippers were spoiled by him.
well thank you so much you bastard!
before this, my dad kept on calling me to come back to the house, but we were a long long way from home.
so robin already pissed me off, then my dad came and add oil into the damn fire!
i could have been a volcano which could erupt anytime!
so after he spoiled my slippers, i had to run bear foot back home.
my feet hurt so badly!
then i saw that look on my dad's face, all red and fierce.
i knew it wasn't a good sign and he's gonna start blabbing non-stop.
so we went home, on the way, he was mumbling by himself as i didn't bother about what he was talking about.
blah blah blah.
i was so heart broken cause i loved that slippers!
plus it was damn new.
shit you lah bastard.

the next day, my mum talked to his mum about it and his mum dragged the rest of them into this matter.
i was so annoyed!
they didn't even do anything wrong and you're blaming them for no reason?
wow.
so she asked him to apologise to me and also pay for the new pair that my mum is gonna get me.
he didn't even meant his apology.
he just did it so he could satisfy both parties.
i faked a smile and kept my mouth tightly shut.
i couldn't even smile actually, wanted to box him so badly.
i had to sing on that day so i decided to calm down so it wouldn't spoil my mood.
then after our mums have left he was talking about the slippers over and over again.
CAN'T YOU KEEP YOU'RE MOUTH SHUT ?
i didn't bother and just walked away.
i don't plan on talking to him again.
after this matter i am really starting to hate rich people.
some are really humble and kind, but this is just too over!
you are protecting your son for what he did wrong?!
can't you just tell him straight in the face that he had done something wrong?
if i were you i would have scolded him terribly till he wet his pants or something!
so yeah.
that's about it.
the names above are changed for some reasons.



all i do is just sitting down and wondering if i could just turn back time.
i wish i could undo what i have did that caused us to be this way.
i don't know what is gonna happen after the holidays.
hopefully we can talk to each other again?
i still miss those memories that we had for the past year.
those tears and the laughter that we had, will be always remembered.
always.



time to get excited!
but sadly there was nothing to be excited about since i had a terrible stomach ache before the camp.
that was just horrible!
there was nothing i can do but to go on and attend the camp.
so i reached school, half dead.
could not even walk properly.
anyways, let's get started.
so we waited half an hour for the students to arrive.
many were late!
kinda disappointed about that.
then we started with the official assembly and then started off with an ice breaking game.
then each group presented their yell.
after that, they all went to change as we all were going to play station games!
i was excited though i wasn't playing.
i briefed them on the rules and so, the game begun.
i was rounding the school checking on every group and also the stations.
not long after, the groups have finished playing and it was time for torture!
i asked all the students to gather at the back field.
they don't really have the idea of what we were going to do.
all they see was buckets of water every where.
then the board members and some seniors started to wet all the student!
that was fun!
even i got wet!
the water ruined all my name tags.
then we had cooking competition!
we were all starving!
then each group prepared a meal for the board members which was also the judges.
wow.
the food was awesome!
didn't know they were such good cooks!
i enjoyed all the food they had prepared.
it was awesome!
we had a break and continued with the indoor games.
we had lots of fun but sadly we had to call it a day.
it was a very good experience for me to get to know my society members even better.
it was a very very tiring day and i enjoyed it.


thank you for always being there for me when i needed you.
thank you for always putting a smile on my face.
and you sound so cute on the phone!
hehe.
i love you. ♥

one day i caught myself smiling for no reason, then i realized i was thinking of you.

what can i do?

wow.
i've just realised how emo i am when i blog.
mann.
ain't something good.
HAHA.

so.....
HOLIDAYS HAVE JUST STARTED!!
yay yay yay!
but i am stuck with homework.
i actually planned to go jogging in the morning which never worked out.
and i also planned to study and it didn't work out either.
anyways, this holidays, my mum sent me to vocal classes!
i am so happy!
i always wanted to go for vocal classes.
and now my dream is halfway fulfilled!
so far everything is going well.
now the only thing i wanna do is to straighten my hair.
hopefully my mummy will allow. *fingers crossed*

so yeah.
nothing much happened i guess.
HEHE.

don't leave me alone. stay with me, please.