that's all what you adults know how to do.
you want to separate then just do it.
don't tell me some bullshit saying that you all are not going to separate yet because of me and my stupid exams.
i don't give a shit to my exams thanks to you people.
do you think my exams makes more sense now?
no it doesn't!
it makes it worst!
and now i would gladly put the blame back to you.
have you seen how my results are lately?
you know it deep down that i have been worst since last year.
you know this is a fact.
have you ever thought the reason why?
no i guess not.
it is obviously because of you people.
i did not choose to come into this world, did i ?
no i didn't.
after so many times thinking that i should kill myself and end all these shit, in the end i thought to myself that i have two sisters who are counting on me later in life because basically, and obviously, both of you are of no use.
and everyday i think to myself, whether i could live happily, in a perfect family where flaws are accepted and not rejected.
i don't feel like staying here any more.
there ain't no reason why i am here.
do you know how painful it was to watch one drive away in front of a 5 year old kid when that kid did not even know what the heck was happening?
it was to the extreme only i could understand.
to hear them laugh after what had happened hurt me the most.
innocent laughs.
they just simply didn't understand.
but i did.
and it breaks my heart.
being here just breaks my heart.
you don't know how much i wish for it to mend.
you will never ever know.
because both of you are selfish people.
you never think before you do and the consequences that come chasing after your children and not you.
i wish someone would just dump me in an alley, with lots of cash, so that i could live on my own.
sometimes, i just wish that i was never chosen to be born because i simply mean nothing to you.
nothing.
i did not choose this.
neither do you know how painful it is.
you said you do but you never ever will.
wish everything could be undone.
