sports day.

we didn't win this year.
i feel so sad.
i thought we could win.
but they did very well today and i am superb proud of them.
they came for all the practises and always there on time.
i bet we can do better next year and win other societies.
but the only thing which makes me very unhappy is that the judges do not look up to other societies.
i am not saying that other societies didn't do well.
they did do very well.
people from my school who read this will know what i am talking about.
i really so not understand how does the teacher give marks.
i mean their marching wasn't even marching.
whatever lah.
they are just so unfair.
SO UNFAIR.

memories which i will never forget.

this two silly girls. you will never get angry at them cause they are just simply cute!



Miss Gorgeous! so fishy and cute! HAHA. *loves*


the JV marchers.



ah yo.. why so shy? HAHA. the rest was watching the cheer leading in the primary hall.



opps. i didn't rotate. sorry!!



eh eh. how come got two same faces here?? HAHA. twins lah! so cute!!



look how blur they are. HAHA.



resting. resting. resting.

these are the times.
the times which i will never forget cause i had so much fun with all these people.
these are the people who give you stress at first.
but when you think and look back, you will just smile.
that was what i did.
these are those people who gave me laughter, hope and faith.
they are just simply awesome.
i love them!

what makes me happy?

today was our school sports day rehearsal.
i was very nervous because my teacher adviser wasn't there and i needed the flag for our society.
i waited and waited till i saw him.
i asked him and he thought that we do not need the flag and so he didn't bring the pole for our flag.
i was so disappointed.
then i just marched with the marchers then i just stopped and started walking.
HAHA.
during the first rehearsal, we didn't do very well.
so i advised them to do it properly.
then they did!
they are so good!
but unfortunately, we had to go back to school.
everyone was superb tired.
i went to parade to eat with Jasmine, Lee Yan, and Miss Gorgeous :)
we had a bit of fun there?
HAHA.
then we went to eat.
we took a long time and ended up being late for practise in school.
then they just continued marching.
everyone looked so dead.
there was no energy in them anymore.
i took some pictures of them.
i will upload them later. :)
they were so tired and worn-ed out.
then i told them to stop cause there was no use to practise again as they were superb tired.
we gathered in the primary hall.
i briefed them about Vanguard Day and about the camp.
then they were dismissed.
i wanted to go parade again, but my mum called.
so i had to go.
on the way out, i saw cadet police.
so i asked them if they had extra gloves and they said they have.
i was so relieved.
our society was lacking of gloves.
then i quickly ran into the car.
and then my mum said that i told her i end at 3.
but i remember me saying i end at 3.30.
so i didn't want to argue with her and just kept my mouth shut.
then i reached home and i wanted to sleep.
but i couldn't.
so i came online!
HEHE.

i am also very tired.
the hot sun today caused me to get sun burn.
my arms are already dark enough.
but today the sun made it darker and it is red-er now.
this is so freaking terrible!
i used to be very white!
now i am so dark.
haizz.

i hope the marchers can do properly tomorrow.
i have faith that they can.
i don't care what other societies think of us.
i just know that they are doing their best.
and they are also having fun!
i really pray that we can win tomorrow.
i know we can!
i have that faith in me :)
because all these 30 marchers, gave me hope.
i really really appreciate what they are doing now.
and i love them so much!
they are awesome!!
JV IS AWESOME!!

learning to be a leader can make you a better person.
i am trying to be a good leader and so are the others.
i just hope that JV will be well-known again.
i wanna bring back that JV spirit.
i know all the Vanguards can.
i know.


so what makes me happy?
this society and all my friends make me happy.

what are you trying to do to me?!

starting from last week, our Joyful Vanguard society started marching.
from then till now, my skin colour also changed already.
i am getting darker and darker day by day!
SHIT LAH.
the marching is so far so good.
they did better today.
i am so proud of them!
:)
then some things happen which made me very unhappy.
i myself do not know how to solve it.
every time i think of it, i feel so stressed out.
this happened yesterday and today.
i do not know why teenagers have such bad attitude nowadays.
i do not know why parents want to spoil them.
the way they raise up their child is very important.
or maybe the way they socialise in school changed them.
the people they mixed with also changes them.
i don't know why this person had to act in that manner.
it really made me feel very uncomfortable.
i just want to leave everything to God and let Him work things out.


studies. studies. studies.
this two weeks, i didn't get enough of rest.
i was very busy with marching and tuition.
every time i reach home, i quickly start doing my homework but i will fall asleep cause i was very tired.
then after a while, i have to go for tuitions.
i even have two tuitions in one day.
i wonder how am i going to cope with this life!
i have so many things to do and settle.
but i do not have the time.
what am i going to do?!
the only days i am free is Friday and Sunday.
the rest is all packed.
SUPERB PACKED.
i rather study in tuition than in school except add maths. :)
I LOVE MY ADD MATHS TEACHER!
the rest is all bullshit.
the classes in school is so boring!
especially the ones early in the morning!
the weather in the morning is so cooling and makes me feel like sleeping.
but some teachers do not allow us to sleep in class.
some even tries to discipline us.
oh my gosh.
that's not even the teacher's job!
and luckily the homework the teachers are giving is getting lesser and lesser.
if not i will just die!
i don't have time to even sleep at home. :(
sadnya!
HAHA.

love? love? love?
should i?
should i not?
i am confused.
will there ever be a chance for us to get back with each other?
or it is the other way around?
i find it hard to read you're mind at times.
i don't know whether you're just trying to hide your feelings or it is just the truth.
to me, i don't think there is a chance for us to get back already.
but faith changes everything.
i don't know what is going to happen in the future.
i just hope everything just go with the flow.
i don't wanna be a messed up person ever again.
EVER EVER EVER AGAIN!


actually i have started writing a story.
but the sequence is a bit messy.
so after i edit the story, i will post it on my blog.
sorry miss gorgeous! you'll get to read it soon. :)
every morning while waiting for Constance's dad to pick me up, i always stand outside and wait.
every time i look up, i always see the same star.
this star is brighter than the others.
and i find it very special.
i love taking pictures of the clouds, the sunset and many more.
i will upload the pictures when i have time.
so yeah.
that's it for now.
i will rarely update my blog cause i have no time to online.
bye bye!

i close my eyes and i will see a better day.
i close my eyes and pray.
i know there's sunshine beyond that rain.
i know there's good times beyond that pain.
i close my eyes and pray. :)


pretty, pretty please
if you ever, ever feel
like you're nothing,
you're fucking perfect to me. <3


the world will force you to smile,
i am here to help you notice the rainbow,
cause i know,
what's in you is out there.
I'm waiting :)

valentines day?

valentines day was the most horrible day ever!
it was so boring!
i just sat at home and rot.
HAHA.
and i got sick on valentines day.
YAY?
even my voice changed!
what a bad bad day..

today i went out with miss mango.
we didn't plan it at all.
HAHA.
as usual we will definitely go and play pump it up.
we tried new songs today.
and we could play it!
WOHOOO!
it still needs improvement though.
then i play until my leg is so darn pain.
i cannot really walk now.
how sad.
i also spent a lot of money on it.
i am so DEAD!
haha.
then we just went home.
i didn't meet anyone except for pumpers there.

after this got physics tuition.
HAIZ.
can i don't go?
i am so lazy..
HAHA..

all you need is love.

today today today!

today my school held a cross-country run!
i was very nervous!
HAHA.
so lame.
i just kept on jogging but my rubber band kept on falling so i had to stop several times just to tie my hair.
ISHED.
then i was almost at the finish line and this is where i saw those form 4's.
i was desperate to cut them so i quickly jogged and i sprint at the end.
but when i reached there, there was a girl who just cut my line.
i was awfully tired so i just left it.
and she even play cheat!
she crossed the petrol station when we're not suppose to.
whatever lah.
HAHA.
but i am superb happy that i got top 10!
i only moved up a placing from last year.
better than nothing!
:)
then i was waiting for miss gorgeous to come back.
everyone was so tired and their faces were so red when they reached the school.
then after miss gorgeous came back, we went into the school.
i was walking around searching for my friends.
but i didn't know where they were.
then luckily i saw some and i joined them.
and suddenly i lost them in the canteen.
so i just went back to the hall and i saw Khalisyah!
thank goodness.
we were chatting in the primary hall and then Manja came and joined us :)
after that i went off and i saw Cheryl and Kah yuan :)
so i joined them.
HAHA.
after that was the prize giving ceremony!
after that, as usual, the event ended earlier.
so i went to parade to call my mum.
then i took 20 minutes looking for Constance.
HAHA.
funny lah!
after a while, my mum came and i went into the car.
after sending her home, we ate in Beacon's Point.
then we when home, rested, and we went to visit my cousin who just gave birth yesterday.
i was so excited to see the baby!
he look like his dad!
he is superb cute!
hehe.
then i went for my bm tuition.
and again, i saw 'him'.
OH MY GOSH.
it is so sickening cause almost all my tuition is the same with him.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yerrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
so sick sick sick!
i see him also wanna vomit already!
*knocks head on the wall*
i just don't wanna see him again cause on my second day in one of my tuition, he kept on talking behind my back.
as if i don't understand Chinese!!
i just can't speak Chinese.
doesn't mean i don't understand.
and what the heck is your damn problem?!
is it wrong to take a funny picture ?
is it wrong to laugh when teacher says a joke?
is is freaking wrong?!
i felt like slapping you on that day.
you were so damn lucky cause i was in a good mood.
if not, you were dead meat.
i don't care if you are much taller than me or bigger in size, i am just going to slap you and make you wake up.
what kind of damn attitude do you have man?!
i get angry every time i see your stupid face.
ISHED.
after today's tuition, i came home and straight away online :)
i didn't get much rest lately.
always had to stay back in school and i have tuition almost everyday.
i get stressed out just to think about it.
but i have no choice.
THIS IS FORM 4 LIFE.
and every subject is not easy as i thought.
i should have taken arts stream.
my ambition has nothing to do with science at all!
haiz.
sad sad sad.
so many stuff to be done.
i haven't even touched my homework yet.
and i am soooooooooooooo hungry!!!!!!
HAHA.

who is my valentine this year?
no one i guess.
HAHA.

being single is so fun!
:)
blekkkksssss.
i feel lonely at times.
but who the heck cares.


guys, guys and guys.
do they understand the word beautiful?
a girl can be beautiful from the outside.
a girl can be beautiful on the inside.
a girl can be beautiful inside and out.
but they only focus on the outside.
i actually do not know why am i talking about this.
this is totally random.
just felt like saying it. :)


and this few days, whenever I'm alone, i always think about the stuff that i know will never happen.
i kept on thinking about this and that.
it so fun imagining, but my imaginations will be ruined.
cause i know that it will never ever happen.
i don't know how i can stop myself from imagining all these things.
i want to stop!
i don't wanna think anymore.
can i?
i guess not.


i am going to church tomorrow.
and Victor King is the guest speaker.
i wonder whether he is good or not.
he preached before but i didn't go to church on that day.
i am looking forward to tomorrow.
time to let go yesterday and move forward :)

i am superb bored nowadays.
cause i do not know what i can do.
my phone doesn't even ring!
my gosh.
can someone please text me?
HAHA.
just joking!
running out of credit again.
aiks.
the money given to me always finishes very very very fast.
i must stop this stupid habit.
i don't know how am i going to handle my money in future cause i already cannot handle it now.
*faints*
and i am going to make some changes to my blog except my blog link.
cause of some reasons.
which i will not tell.
HAHA.


i love my blogggggggg!

thank you for reading my blog! :)

oh man, what now?!

i think i will just faint in school.
i am running up and down the school.
not all the time.
but yeah.
i still need to handle marching.
oh no.
my voice also gone case already.
i am having a terrible sore throat.
yay?
HAHA.
one thing i learn this year is that i learn to put other people first before i think for myself.
having these posts in school really taught me a lot.
i am really glad that my friends are there for me when i need them. :)
love you dudes!


today was a hectic day for me.
i skipped two periods of physics cause i was decorating the class and i think teacher got pissed.
OOPS.
then we went to the biology lab.
we did an experiment today.
the onion cell!
the look of in through the microscope was just simply amazing.
i love biology so much!
i hate physics.
HAHA.
then it was double period of moral after recess.
we get to skip almost the two periods cause we went for a photography session and the stuff in class fell down.
so we had to stick it again.
then it was English.
oh gosh.
the MOST BORING class ever man!!
this teacher should really get an award for the MOST BORING class ever.
i bet he'll win it.
HAHA.
then it was add maths!
my favourite!
we learnt about functions today.
it is a very easy chapter i guess.
and the teacher is just superb awesome!
i love her!
HAHA.
then the last period was modern maths.
*knocks head on the wall*
before teacher came i went to check out on the afternoon section marching.
wasn't very good, but it can be slowly trained.
then i went back to class and teacher was already there.
i hate it when i have modern maths class.
her class is not funny, her voice is irritating, and why is this teacher making a big fuss over the class discipline?!
we must not talk in class and we must all stand up before we wish her.
oh my gosh.
it is so annoying!
she said if we wanna talk then we can go outside.
how i wish i could do that.
i do not need to enter modern maths class if i can do so.
too bad i can't.
so sad!
then i went for marching.
i told the commander to save her voice and i will take over her place.
so i did.
almost all the societies were there.
so i had so be as loud as possible.
and that was crazy!
now i am having a terrible sore throat.
but it was worth it.
i think the marchers did quite well today. :)
well done!
then i went home.
the weather is so hot!
HAHA.
then i watched step up 3 in my room.
it is not very nice but i love the way they dance.
it was fantastic.
then when the movie was about to finish, the CD got jammed.
so i had to keep on hitting the laptop so i can watch the movie.
HAHA.
so funny!
then i went to jog in the park.
couldn't jog for very long but i guess it was enough. :)
i came back and watched music bank and the princess and the frog.
the princess and the frog story is quite nice but dumb at times.
it was as usual a happy ending with the prince charming.
haiz.
does fairy tales really come true?
if they do, where is my prince charming?!
HAHA.

tomorrow my school is having a marathon.
i just hope i can get top 10 again.
wish me luck! :)

and fucking perfect by pink is totally awesome!

time to move on.

i don't want to know the truth.
i don't want to see you.
i don't want to bother anymore.
cause i got over you.

i don't think about you anymore.
and i certainly don't regret.
i am better off without you.
i know that there is someone out there who can treat me better.
i am just waiting.

to someone special,
you were right.
i fall to fast.
but he really made me happy.
i know you just wanted me to get over him.
and yes, i got over him.
he wouldn't have let me go if he loved me.
and i know you will always be with me no matter what happens.
i am truly truly lucky to have you as my best friend.
and i really thank God cause we're still in the same class!
i just wanna apologize for my bad temper.
*but please don't ask me anything about add maths!*
i love you dude!


how is Chinese new year?
okay so far i guess.
the first day of Chinese new year was my dad's birthday.
get to eat baskin robins ice cream cake!
so tasty. :)
then today is the second day.
and the most tiring day.
went to visit a few uncle and aunty.
got many many angpaus!
during the first visit in an old aunty's house, all my cousins went to play basketball.
so my sisters and i followed also.
and there was a stranger there.
a super hot stranger.
how i wished he asked for my number.
he disappeared after we went off.
i didn't see him again.
man, he was hot!!
*knocks my head on the wall*
then nothing much happened.
after that i went to my aunty's house.
and we were gambling.
HAHA.
i didn't win money today.
ished.
played for a very long time then now i am back home!
i would have been asleep if we came home earlier.
but now i cannot sleep anymore.
i slept late yesterday cause of my stupid stomach pain.
i didn't take any pictures during this Chinese new year.
so yeah.
no pictures to be uploaded.

and to those people how texted and wished me, thank you so much!
i am truly sorry i couldn't reply.
i am out of credit currently.
love you guys! <3

will update more tomorrow :)

I WANNA SEE MORE HOT GUYS !!

all cause of you.

if you have loved me, you would have never left me alone.
if you have taken it seriously, we wouldn't have to break up.
and you shouldn't have asked me to be your girlfriend if you knew we weren't gonna last long.
and yes, i am blaming it all on you.

you are so happy without me and i am so freaking upset cause of you.
and cause of this stupid i have been making all the time, i am not going to be in another freaking relationship.
i don't wanna trust any guy anymore.
all they do is take your heart and then just making it break into a billion pieces.
i am so freaking confused.
i wish i could read minds!
and where the heck is my prince charming??!!
HAHA.


hmmm.
what did i do today?
I WENT OUT WITH MISS GORGEOUS!
WOHOOOOOOO!
today wasn't awesome awesome, but yeah it was awesome.
HAHA.
started off on the morning when i waited for her for like an hour!!
then we went to jusco.
like lah we can go somewhere else.
then we went to play pump it up!
i was so frustrated cause i couldn't do the three buttons thing.
then we went off and did something else which i cannot really remember.
all i remember was i went to eat in secret recipe and we were talking while i was eating.
then we went to the food court and it was miss gorgeous' turn to eat.
so we just continued talking.
then we went back to capcom.
then i met lim jing wai and john chai.
we were just talking.
both of them were very professional in the pump it up game.
i wonder when i can be like them.
then we were just talking and playing and talking and playing.
hehe.
they are very very nice people :)
i got pinched also.
ouch!
HAHA.
then after playing we just sat behind and started talking.
we talked for a very long time i think.
then we went to get ice cream.
and suddenly someone just touch my hand.
i jumped up cause i got shocked.
then i saw that it was one of the guys who was playing just now at capcom.
i was like fuhhhhhh.
he's very nice too.
wonder what's his name.
hmmm.
then we went up again.
i think john was playing.
then after that i also played.
i don't really remember what happened already.
oh gosh.
i feel so old.
anyways, we also went to look for phones but the one miss gorgeous was looking for is obsolete.
so then we went back to capcom and saw 'him' playing.
OH NO.
then after him, miss gorgeous and i played.
and i heard them saying something like 'if you don't know how to play then don't play.'
i wasn't sure whether he meant us or someone else.
but after i heard that i got kinda pissed.
so whatever lah.
then we went to choose earrings for miss gorgeous.
they looked awesome on her.
then we went to the ground floor.
and miss gorgeous had to buy soap powder.
HAHA.
after that we went home.
what a day!
actually got more to blog about, but i am just lazy.
and miss gorgeous met like 4 people today.
so funny.
that's it i guess.
*i think i messed up the sequence of the story.* O.O

if you didn't liked me at all, then why start a relationship?
can you just please tell me the truth?

has it all gone to waste?

miss gorgeous, i really wanna thank you for always being there for me.
i know you will forever and always be right beside me to help me go through whatever that I'm facing.
thank you for always caring about me.
and yeah.
I'm all messed up.
it's not his fault.
maybe he did the right thing to let go.
i am the one who can't let go.
and i just want to be like this.
i know that he still loves me.
i just hope he made the right choice to let go.


miss mango, i really thank you so much for being there for me.
you were always busy but you always make time to chat with me.
i was very upset when we couldn't go to the same tuition.
i just hope we can chat more often.
sometimes, you don't know what to tell me but just that one text make me feel so good.
we go through so much together.
you will always be my best friend.
forever.
promise :)



i keep on thinking about him.
it won't stop.
and i don't know what to do.
i don't want you to leave me.
i want you to make me smile again.
i don't know whether you guys felt it before, but that joy when i was with him, is a feeling that i can't even explain.
i am trying to let go.
i am really trying.
please give me some time.


MISS MANGO AND MISS GORGEOUS,
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
friends, forever and always.

baby, please come back. i love you.