jealousy.

jealousy.
why does this feeling exist ?
i really want to know.

i don't care about how your body is more hotter or sexier than mine.
i really don't care.
so what if it is ?
i don't want some guy to like me cause of the shape or the curves of my body.
i want him to love me for who i am.
if you wanna say all these things , don't tell it to another friend of mine.
tell it to me, face to face, eye to eye.
because if you really want him then take him.
i don't wanna be someone standing in the way of two people that are in love or whatsoever.
just tell me.
i hate people talking about me behind my back.
if not then just shut up and keep it to yourself you slut.
stop being jealous cause I'm with your ex and bla bla bla.
you were the one who didn't want him.
you were the one who could not accept him the way he is.
so get lost.
thank you very much.

having a singing competition tomorrow.
i just pray we get through the semi-finals !
pray for us ! :D

if you don't love me anymore, just tell me. 

i don't wanna continue this if there was never love in our relationship. 

i don't know whether it's true, but if it is, it's time to end it. 

thank you for dropping by and God bless all of you. :)


<3,
miss awesome. 

i hate it.

i hate it.
i hate the way so many girls surround you.
i hate the way things has changed.
i hate everything.
i admit, i am jealous.

been getting back results for the past two days.
not really happy with it but i can't do anything with it.
so far i have not fail anything yet.
i really thank God as He was always with me and gave me good results though i didn't really study.
i had a singing competition today and i passed !
i did a duet with my friend.
glad we passed.
i hope we nail it in the semi finals !

so i think that's about it.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you ! :)

<3,
miss awesome.

i think too much.

i think too much.
i waste a lot of time thinking of stuff that i should not be thinking of.
in the end, i end up being tensed up.
thinking about it and wondering whether it was true or false.
then i make my own conclusions.
i have no idea whether i am right or wrong.
i hate this kind of feeling.
it kills me.
i hate it so badly.
i really want to know the truth.
do you still love me ?



that's all for now.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you.


<3,
miss awesome.

one of the best day in my life :)

one of the best day in my life :)
i went out with miss gorgeous yesterday.
we planned to do our homework.
well, we managed to do some.
the rest were all laughter and talking rubbish.
i met a few people.
including Darren :)
he helped miss gorgeous with her homework !
how nice of him.
he was really funny :D
he left when we were having our lunch in black canyon.
the food there is not bad.
not bad at all.
we went to the pet shop to see some creepy crawlies :)
miss gorgeous was disgusted.
haha.
we left and went on a mission to get miss gorgeous a wallet.
as usual, she takes a billion years just to choose one.
i was going crazy !
in the end she bought one and i was relieved.
the promoter there thinks we're crazy.
haha, that was very normal though.
then both of us went to our respective tuitions.
i was dying.
wishing i could sleep!
too bad i couldn't and end up making a lot of noise.
more than the usual.
it was one of the best days in my entire life. :D
i truly enjoyed myself. :)


we spoke till it was 2 in the morning.
wish i could talk more with him.
and i guess, we both needed that.
we both needed to hear each others voices again.
everything is better now after that phone call.
can't wait for our third month anniversary.
i pray that he remembers ! :D
it's funny the way people ask me why i like him.
it's just love.
the best feeling on earth :)
i love him more than anything in this world.
i really do.


been practicing for my worship this Sunday.
i pray that everything will go on smoothly.
can't wait ! :D


that's all for now.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

love can bring you into a whole new world. 

things you have never imagined will come true. 

it became a world of my own where imaginations run wild. 

 

<3,
miss awesome. 

is this good or bad ?

is this good or bad?
am i doing the right thing ?

it's great to know that people trust you and they look for you to help them with their problems.
but sometimes, it is just too much.
i don't know how i can help you anymore.
i tried helping you but you never helped yourself.
so what do you expect me to do ?
i think i am even more stressed than you are.
you are matured enough to think.
to think what's right and what's wrong.
but no.
you are so confused and you can't make up your mind.
this is kinda a normal thing for a teenager though.
i don't blame you.
but really, sometimes, it's just too much.


things changed.
you've changed.
I've changed.
everything has changed.
just hope and pray that everything will just be like old times again.
i wonder are you thinking the same way as i am.


holidays are so far so good i guess.
nothing fantastic happened yet :D
waiting for miracles to happen :)

I'm worship leading this week !
hopefully everything will go on smoothly.
lack of practice.

that's all for now.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you !

miracles can happen if you just believe. :)

have faith. 

<3,
miss awesome.

tell me you still do.

tell me you still do.
tell me you still love me.
because somehow, i have lost that faith.
so much has changed and i don't want it to be this way.
i really don't.

so yeah.
exams are over and yet i don't feel that joy in me.
i am just relieved.
i did badly in everything.
well, this is what i get for not studying and decided to laze around when everyone else is studying.
no regrets though.
already happened.
done with it.

i have been doing lots of silly stuff with miss gorgeous. :)
haha.
what else could we be doing mann ?
that's what best friends do :)
you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.
love you lots. 

that's about it.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you.

you've changed. 

I've changed. 

what happened? 

tell me. 

<3,
miss awesome.

thank you.

thank you.
for all that you have done for me.
you have always stood there beside me no matter what i am going through.
you mean a lot to me.
and i cannot replace you with anyone else in the entire world.

when i grow older, i will remember all these times that I've went through.
yes, i am sad.
but i think to myself, "hey, what's the point if i keep on thinking about it ?".
it has already happened and still is.
i don't know what to do.
i promise you i won't be sad.
and you know i will regret doing it.
you know i will.
what am i suppose to do ?
am i suppose to turn left or turn right ?
i can't let go of this relationship after what i have been through.
you know i can't do it.
i just can't.
i can't destroy some one's relationship just like that.
i can't afford to risk mine too.
I'll slowly let it go.
i promise.
hopefully i know what i am doing. :)


school.
you want us to sit according to alphabetical order.
why?
does it benefit you in any way ?
does it ?
we have to line up and even sit in classes according to the alphabetical order.
i don't know who came up with such a stupid rule.
it's so annoying.
i have not started studying for my monthly exam yet.
i don't want to give a damn anymore.
so sick of all this nonsense.
am going for a seminar this Sunday.
looks like fun !
i can't wait. :)

so many things have changed.
while i was waiting for my mum to pick me up after school, there were a bunch of juniors standing nearby.
one of them was so rude and vulgar.
she cursed every single thing she sees.
is she even a human or an animal ?
i have never seen people talk like that before.
that is just plain rude and no self respect.
she even spilled her coke everywhere cause her friend threatened her.
guess that was a bad idea.
i am not saying that i am not vulgar.
i am.
but rarely.
i don't just simply curse the tree and laugh.
that is just mean and crazy.
i do say bad words when i am angry and annoyed.
trying to stop this bad habit though.
 

tell me if you ain't happy. 

tell me the truth. 

i don't want to live a life full of your lies. 

so that's about it. 

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

<3, 

miss awesome.