baby, please come back.
i still believe in us.

please come back.

i was so happy to see your name appear after so long.
but i know it wasn't something good.
and yeah.
it wasn't something good.
i just felt so moody all of a sudden.
i was at parade at that time.
i kept on walking around.
and i kept on thinking about you and how you always make me smile.
it made me cry.
i was so happy to be with you.
i didn't want it to end this way.
i really hope you'll come back.
i don't want to be without you.
please don't leave me.
everything i do reminds me of you.
i don't think I'll get over you.
and i don't want to get over you.
please please please come back.
don't leave me.
i need you.
i really do.
i don't know why you made this choice.
i really really love you.
i really do.

please come back.
i need you.
i want you.
i just can't get over you.
don't leave me alone.
I'm crashing cause i know I'll never get over you.
you're different.
I'll still love you whether you'll believe me or not.
forever and always.
just come back.
please.
i love you.

the memories remains :(

is it just my stupidity or i am just thinking too much?
should i just let it go?
i want to know the truth.
i really want to.
someone please tell me.
i am just wasting my freaking time thinking about this silly matter.
should i text?
should i just wait?
it's only a week and everything is so messy!
what do you expect me to do?!
what do you want from me?!
i feel so stupid.
SO STUPID!!
can you just reply?


and you idiots.
you think what?
you have a higher post than me?
excuse me?
can you just take a closer look?
you all are acting like bitches.
just because you are closer to the seniors then you can act like that?
if the seniors wanted you as president, then why don't they just do it?
why want to put me in this kind of situation where i have to suffer.
i am someone.
a human being.
not some toy that you can take and play with.
i cannot let go this feeling from me.
it is deep inside me.
i want to tell someone.
but who?
it's just so hard.
i am so stressed out.
i login my facebook on the same day everything happened.
i saw their status.
they were pissed off.
well, look at who is wrong.
isn't that you guys?
doing things that you are not suppose to do during a meeting.
showing a bad example to your juniors.
if this kind of fucking attitude continues, i am leaving my job as a president.
i rather dump it than some bimbos destroying my life and adding my stress.
you bimbos better not think just cause you are closer to the seniors then you guys are better.
just shut the fuck up and do what you're suppose to do.
i am not the only one who realised this.
i really don't know why you guys wanna act like this.
you all are going to destroy the society.
did you ever think about that?
i don't think so.
you guys are so selfish.
only thinking about yourself.
what about others?
are they invisible?
just because you're smart doesn't mean you own everything.
just keep your bladdy mouth shut and do what you're suppose to do.

i love you, believe it or not.

september~

not in a good mood these days.
all cause of my damn mistakes.
keep on making the same ones over and over again.
my stupidity.
i am singing my heart out now.
singing the song September by Chris Daughtry.
so nice.
it is actually making me feel worst.
who the hell cares neways?
do whatever you want.
you wanna break it then do it.

worship went well today.
i could sing all the high chords.
next month i am backing up twice again.
fun fun fun!
my next worship lead is next two months.
can't wait man!
and maybe i am going jusco on Tuesday!
wooooohoooooooooooo~
i think my mum will let if there is nothing important to do on that day.
i hope not! *crosses fingers*

and teachers happily gave so much homework.
i am going to suffer a lot!
no more Chinese new year for me.
it's homework new year.
haha.
i am so freaking lame.

nothing much already.
so bored nowadays.
and some freaks stressing me out.
it ain't easy to become a president.
these people is just somehow making me go crazy.
madness.

do whatever you want.
i ain't going to stop you.
i just hope that you can see my love for you.



i love you.

what is happening?

as you can see, i have been changing a lot of stuff in my blog.
HAHA..
i have nothing to do.
i am so bored!
and lazy to do my homework.
got sick of it already. :)
school is awesome these days.
i am getting along with the people in class quite well :)
all of them are so friendly and funny!
HAHA..
i laugh a lot with them.
and they make us laugh a lot too!
4 cempaka is AWESOME!

then in the assembly few days ago, our principal told all the teachers that they must give homework to us so we can do it during Chinese new year.
wow.
GIVE US A BREAK DUDE!
so now all the teachers are pouring us with loads of homework.
man, i am gonna faint!
i can't even do my chemistry.
i am so dead!
this month and next month is going to be a busy month for me.
aiks.
full with activities and tuition.
*faints*
i am also having lots of fun with miss gorgeous!
i owe her 10 hugs including tomorrow.
HAHA..
we laugh and talk a lot in class.
we don't bother to listen to the teacher who is teaching.
HAHA..
teachers are so boring nowadays.
except for some.
i could just fall asleep in the class.
but i can't.
how sad.
today i stay back for sports practice.
ended up wasting my time!
we did nothing but fool around!
thank goodness i finished my maths work already.
Pn. Teoh gave a lot mann.
madness!!
then now i am stuck with chemistry.
planning to bring it to tuition today and start asking those smart smart people.
HAHA..
i can't even find the answers for the book through google.
ished.
and i have been listening to the radio a lot lately.
got a lot of nice songs!
:)

here are some,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw&ob=av2el
firework by Katy Perry! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQmEd_UeeIk&ob=av2nm
Arvil Lavigne's WHAT THE HELL. :)

got many more... i am very lazy to post adi..
HAHA..
and the one i love the most is in my bloggie!
falling stars by David Archuleta.
my favourite song!
:)

there are a lot of stuff i wanna talk about.
but i am lazy to write.
so yeah.
bye!

i love you!

BOOM~

oh mann.
form 4 life?
can mati!
HAHA..
home works start to pile up already.
it's so annoying.
thank goodness i already finished most of it.
then i am a bit stressed out cause of the positions i hold in school.
but i am enjoying it at the same time :)
then my biology tuition started.
the teacher is awesome and so funny!
although he is old, he is a very good teacher.
the room is kinda small and so it is always packed.
the room was so cold when i entered!
and i was wearing shorts.
just great!
HAHA..
so i was freezing the whole time.
and i kept on asking what's the time cause i wanted to go home so badly.
i was so tired.
i came home and drop dead on the bed.
slept for half a day :)
HAHA..
then now since i have done most of my home works then only i online.
if not i don't even have time to touch the computer!
HAHA..
yeah..
that's about it.
bye~

BOO! ~

i have deactivated my fb and haven't been online till today.
i think i have done something good :) HEHE..
fb doesn't bother me anymore and i have lots of free time to study :)
i have started studying on my own.
the subjects are not very easy.
but surprisingly, i found add maths easy.
i <3 add maths!
HEHE..
this year is a busy year for me :)
yay!
now i always feel excited to go to school.
today there was a special assembly held for a teacher who is leaving our school as she got promoted.
it is a good news but bad news for the students of my school.
it was a sad thing to see her leave.
:'(
she was a very good teacher.
and i have no idea why all the good teachers in my school are all leaving!
this ain't good.
but thank goodness the teachers who are teaching my class are awesome :)

i have nothing to do, so i am gonna upload some pictures :)



miss gorgeous and me :)


miss mango/satay and me :)







Mae Gern and me :)


here are some photos of me and my sisters aka lil monsters :)

my youngest sis :)

the middle one :)

HEHE!

my lil sis :)

and lastly,



i love you.

goodbye?

i have officially deactivated my account in facebook!
WOHOO!
thought i will never do that.
my mum is superb happy i deactivated.. HAHA..
so am i :)

school~
school is awesome!
and i have got a lot of new posts in school for curricular activities.
i know i'll be stressed out but God is there to help me go through this obstacles :)
AMEN!
there's nothing much except i talk a lot with miss gorgeous in class.
OOPS.
shhhhh.
don't tell anyone!
HAHA..


there is nothing much to say for now.
i am so tired!
so yeah. good bye!

i love you.

my 100th post!! :)

form 4.

form 4 is so freaking hard!
i want to burst already!
oh gosh.
the teachers are putting so much stress onto us.
early in the morning already got scolding for making too much noise.
mannnn.
that is not good.
so today in school we, form 4s', passed up our application forms for which class we wanna enter.
and today so many students forgot to bring their PMR results slip to school.
wow.
they really make the teacher so damn pissed.
she kinda shouted at them?
after those dramatic stuff, the speeches continues~
sit until my backbone wanna break lah!
then went for recess.
when we came back, the teacher who is in charge for the form 4s' told us that many of us didn't put a second choice in our application forms.
so she said to those who didn't, and we cannot get into the class that we applied for, the teachers will choose for us.
i got so freaking scared.
that wasn't good news when she said those stuff.
i only put one choice.
so i am really hoping i can get into the class that i want to.
then after some speech the teacher said we could go back to class, so we did.
but it was lock and there was no key as the teachers were having meeting.
so we were all stuck outside except for the classes which were open.
so then there were seniors passing by so miss gorgeous stopped them and asked them some questions.
so i asked them whether a student who has 4 A's for PMR could enter the pure science class.
they said very easy to get in.
but i am still scared!
many students who got straight A's changed their minds and they want the pure science class also.
that wasn't good news either.
aiks.
really hope i can get in.
then after that we went to our meetings for red house, green house and bla bla bla.
our green house voted for people who couldn't really do stuff but the teachers agreed to it.
i got a shock.
our green house won't win this year again, i guess.
then went home.
yayy?
HAHA..


some form 3 girl pissed me off today.
last year i lend my history folio to someone.
so i thought they will use it as a reference so i lent it to them.
then at the end of the year, she didn't give me back.
so i had to keep on asking her for my folio.
and one day she told me that she borrowed to some malay girl and that malay girl didn't come to school.
i got pissed off i kinda scolded her.
she took it for months already!!
so this morning, she passed it to some form 4 girl to give it to me.
it wasn't in a good condition.
it was like a piece of SHIT.
my binding comb was missing, my front and back page was missing together with my plastic covers.
so i flipped the folio and checked it out.
she even took the pages that i wrote all my research.
instead, she left hers in the folio.
i got so pissed off!
i exploded a few times already cause of her.
so then luckily, i met her after school.
she said it is not her fault.
i told her to ask that malay girl to find me.
she is going to get serious scolding from me mann.
they think that folio so easy to do?
i didn't even used the computer, i used my hand to do everything.
plus, she wasted my money!
she just simply take all my stuff!
she better see me tomorrow, or I'll find her and scold her mann.
i get so pissed talking about this.
so yeah.

nowadays also my mood not very good.
always change very fast as usual.
haiz.
things at home aren't good also.
i don't know what to do besides praying.
that's all. :)
nothing to write already.

i love you.

the best thing ever :)

i couldn't stop loving you.
i love you so much!
i have not much things to say about this.
but i just hope that our love will never die.
i do not want this to be another failure.
i have faith in this.
i will wait for you.
hehe. :)

i love you baby. ♥