holidays are gonna end. ARE YOU KIDDING ME ?

holidays are gonna end. ARE YOU KIDDING ME ?
6 more days left.
which is 144 hours = 8640 minutes = 518400 seconds.
oh my goodness.
tick tock tick tock.
time pass so fast !
i haven't even done my homework yet but who cares bout that :D
i have been doing NOTHING.
except texting most of the time.
haha.
i don't plan to do my homework , all i wanna do i shop , play , text and facebook !
never regret reactivating it cause if i didn't, i wouldn't have met you :)

i couldn't sleep the whole night.
so frustrating !
i woke up so early.
i thought i was crazy.
but sadly it is because i am sick !
urgh. so annoying, i must get sick at this time of the year !

so what did you guys do on Christmas?
i went to church and party like crazy !
i think my presentation was quite okay, thank goodness i could hit the right key.
and of all things, my dad was mumbling saying that i should have used a karaoke version instead of the original.
I KNOW !
i would have used a karaoke version if i found one !
made me so pissed off.
still can hear my voice, not a big deal.

on Christmas eve, we had a party at on of our leader's house in Meru Valley.
after carolling , dinner and a short message, the youth, like about 7 of us went out walking.
it was so eerie and scary.
we were walking by a lamp post and suddenly it just off by itself !
we screamed like mad, not caring bout the people who are already sleeping.
we couldn't see anything !
then we drop by to a friend's house.
then i had to go back.
it was so fun !
i don't wanna go again though.
everywhere is dark and scary.

do you guys like my background ?
are my posts easy to see and read?
please do comment :)

that's all for now.
Happy New Year everyone !
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :D

<3,
miss awesome.

is this real ?

is this real ?
things change so fast.
i don't know what to say.
have you let her go yet ?
or am i thinking too much ?

miss gorgeous, i wanna talk to you so badly, i really wish we can go out , i have got lots of stuff to tell you !
come back ! hurry ! i love you lots.

thanks for dropping by, God bless you and MERRY CHRISTMAS !
happy birthday Jesus ! <3

<3,
miss awesome.

time to let go.

time to let go.
holidays are over for me.
the sad thing is i cannot let go.
i've been spending almost a month with my relatives and being back home just makes me feel lonely.
no more sleeping late, no more watching dvd, no more baking cakes, no more having fun.
i know i can go again next year but i truly miss them a lot.
i wished that time will pass slowly when i was with them.
but it pass so fast it felt like i was with them for only a day.
now i really wish that time will past as fast as possible, finish my major examinations and go for a holiday again.
i can't wait !

new year is coming and it's time to start a new life.
here comes Form 5.
the year full of stress and headaches.
i pray that God will guide me through all that i go through.

i think that is all for now.
thank you for stopping by and God bless all of you.

<3,
miss awesome.

miss awesome wishes you a Merry Christmas. :)

my superb holiday!

my superb holiday!
it all started when my family and i went to Malacca.
we went to a water park and enjoyed ourselves there.
the things there are not affordable though.
then my family and i stayed in a four room villa.
it was huge and spacious.
there was a swimming pool too !
great place to stay !
went back to kl the next day.
it wasn't a pleasant one.
but things are over and it is time to move on.
after a night at my aunty's place i went to Singapore!
one of the best place i have ever been.
everyone here is so nice and friendly.
i had lots of fun with my cousin, aunty , uncle and also my lil nephew.
he's so cute!
the place here is so convenient my cousin and i even went cycling to a mall nearby.
then me, my cousin and her husband went to swim again!
it was so fun, plus there was a lot of hot guys. O_O
then we spent the rest of the days here shopping!
i bought so much my suitcase can't fit everything.
oh no.
i am going back to kl tomorrow.
gonna meet with my beautiful jie.
i got everyone a Christmas present and i didn't miss anyone out.
i am satisfied with what i bought and hope that everyone will like it.
i am not gonna update much, lazy.
haha.
i will update the pictures though.
i know i always say i will update the photos, this time i really will.

miss gorgeous, sorry.
i hope you know that i care for you.
that's why i said those stuff.
love you lots. <3

that's all bout now, will try to update soon.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you !


<3,
miss awesome.

happiness and sadness.

happiness and sadness.
let's start off with sadness.

sadness.
school has ended.
this is the last day of the second school term.
i am gonna miss all my friends. :(
miss gorgeous, i know i never told you this, but i am gonna miss you lots.
i am sorry i owe you so many hugs.
please transfer them to next year! :D

it's sad to see that you are always so full of yourself and never realise it.
i feel bad for not talking to you but it is annoying when i talk to you.
you broke my heart when you said i was selfish because i wasn't being selfish.
you are one of the best guy friends i have.
sad to see that some things are not meant to be.


happiness.
i am going lots of places this coming holidays.
i am going to Singapore and i won't be able to talk to miss gorgeous.
ARGH.
i am going there to babysit aka child abuse.
haha.
there will be a lot of work to do !
looking forward to it though.
had lots of fun today in school, i was CRAZY.
then i painted miss gorgeous' nails in the food court of a shopping mall.
that's awesome !
love the colours.
i will upload the photo later. :)
mummy bought a phone cover for me !
it's yellow :D
love it so much.


miss gorgeous, i will miss laughing with you and fooling around with you.
i will miss singing with you ! 
i pray that time pass real fast and we can meet each other soon.
keep in touch with me and remember to read you're mails!
i love you lots, you're the best and NO ONE can replace you.
NO ONE. promiseeee!


so let me tell you what happened today :)
went to school for half a day then went to the shopping mall.
we were so bored !
then we took a 10 minute walk to a shop named chatime to get miss gorgeous' drink.
it was LARGE.
then we walked back to the mall.
and as usual, we'll eat sushi together !
we didn't want to leave as our legs were aching =/
when we left, we went to get nail polish.
then i bought two masks for mummy :)
when we were done, we headed to the food court to pain miss gorgeous' nails.
they look awesome when they were done :)
blue and pink !
we went back to school and waited for my mum to pick us up.
sent miss gorgeous home and now here i am.
i am gonna miss every single moment that we have spent together.
I'll call you before i go to Singapore !

so that's about it.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you.
sorry for the late update, i had nothing to post about.

<3,
miss awesome.

things are not meant to be.

things are not meant to be.
some things are just not meant to be.
are they ?
i hate it when things are like this.
guess things are best this way.


went to school today and got majority of my results back.
it ain't satisfying!
i don't care if i fail history, which i already did, but i knew i could do better than what i got.
regretting now is no use.
shame on me. :(
i have improved on my add maths though.
not a bad thing.


had so much fun with miss gorgeous today.
we laughed so much :D
all we did was laugh the whole day.
i miss her a lot !
she's a person i can share anything and everything with.
i don't care if people think we're nuts because we are awesome in every single way.
people may not like us, but i like it just the way we are.


miss gorgeous, i don't know whether you have read this or not, but this is for you. English summary :)

Friends will not be forgotten until the end of our lives. Good friends are those who are true, loyal and stand by us no matter what. Friends are those who are there for us in rain or shine. They do not judge or rule, instead they listen and reach out. They accept, tolerate and respect us for who we are. They tell us that they love us, take care and nurture us. Good friends help us get back on our feet. Fake friends will control, hurt and break our hearts. Many of us will drown in sorrow due to their manipulation. We should be grateful that we have friends because they were always there in our darkest moments and making our life worth living for. 

i thought best friends are just fairy tales till the day you came into my life. 

i will never forget you until the end of my life. 

you have always been true , loyal and stand by me no matter what and through rain or shine in my life. 

you have always listened and never fail to. 

you have always loved me and take care of me. 

when i have been kicked in the face and down on my knees, you have always been there helping me to get back on my feet. 

you are not some fake friend that will make me suffer in our friendship.

i am grateful that i have you as my best friend, that you were always there in my darkest moments and above all, making my life worth living for.
we will never fall apart and no one can ever break our friendship.
no matter where you are in the future, remember, i will always remember you and no one can ever replace you.

thank you so much.

i love you lots. <3

thank you for dropping by and God bless all of you. :)

<3,
miss awesome.

i hate history. 

i want to sit on the clouds.

i want to sit on the clouds.
the way i could see everything from up there would be amazing.
there will be wind and i could feel the warmth of the sun.
how nice :)
i really really wanna sit on the clouds.

i am sick !
and i hate it.
skipping school today cost me a certificate.
if i went to school, i would get a certificate for full attendance.
SHIT.
hate it !

i really don't understand you.
argh.
i hate this.
it's like our friendship is going down the drains.
i don't know what to do.


miss gorgeous!
i miss you.
i need to call you !
emergency !
HAHA.
love you lots. :)


thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you.

<3,
miss awesome.

i want to sit on the clouds.

the holiday is over :(

the one week holiday is over.
makes me realise how fast time flies.
and i keep on wasting my time doing things that are unnecessary.
i haven't finished my homework and school is going to reopen in 3 days.
i am still here, online, doing nothing.
I've been reading blogs and saw different people expressing themselves in different ways.
i enjoyed reading their blogs. :)

I'm suppose to go out with my friends today.
sadly, my dad didn't allow all of a sudden saying that i went out too many times.
i didn't want to argue with him.
and i only went out once.
oh my goodness, he really has problems.
i don't like talking to him at all.

Psalm 56: 3, When i am afraid i will trust in You.

that's all for today. 

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you. :)

<3, 

miss awesome.

what a day !

what a day !
i am so exhausted.
been doing chores since 11 in the morning and i just finished all my chores like JUST NOW.
oh mann.
my whole body is aching.
planning to go for a jog tomorrow.
time to lose some weight !

went to physics tuition with miss gorgeous yesterday.
we weren't even paying attention!
all we did was talk, talk and talk.
we went to look for sweets yesterday during the break time and ended up seeing a lot of scary people.
the place was so dark!
miss gorgeous suddenly walk so fast like lightning i couldn't catch up with her !
we were both so scared.
then we ended up buying sweets from the corner shop.
i ate so many sweets, i had stomach ache at night.
i couldn't sleep well. =/

this is awesome.
it makes sense to me.
a piece of good advice for everyone out there. :)

a guy should realise how girls really treasure that relationship.
all they do is fool around as if you're invisible.
they'll find another girl and end up doing the same thing to her.
why can't guys just stick to one?

dear dream guy ,
WHERE ARE YOU ?!
how i wished someone really loves me for who i really am.
i want a guy who thinks i am perfect for him.
*waits patiently*

that's all for today.
will try to update soon.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you.


<3,
miss awesome.

stop stop stop!

stop you idiots!
why is it so hard for you all to understand that the world is in danger?
you all just burn stuff as you wish and everyone else just watch the smoke rise up to the sky.
and look at the mountains!
they are going bald !
it's just like they want the world to end faster.
and all we teenagers do is write stupid essays about how we can save the environment.
the government or whoever should do something!
people are cutting down trees to build new buildings and houses.
oh my gosh.
things are not like how they used to be.

i so agree on this ! 

stalking is such a strong word, i prefer intense research of an individual. 

this statement is awesome ! 

 

it's so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.

this is so true. 

miss gorgeous, i will never forget you because you gave me so much to remember. 

i love you lots ! 

to:  miss gorgeous, 

you are one in a million. no one can ever ever replace you in my heart. :)

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you. 

<3,

miss awesome.

i couldn't stop laughing!

i couldn't stop laughing after seeing what miss gorgeous had posted.
HAHA..
she posted this picture in her blog.
thank you for making me laugh you doink !
love you lots.

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

<3,
miss awesome.

i am not the director !

i am not the director!
this is what miss gorgeous said when we were watching REAL STEEL.
it was awesome!
worth my money to watch it.

went to Anderson school in the morning for interact club installation.
i wasn't even an interactor.
HAHA.
went there to perform and i think i did badly.
yikes.
hoped everyone liked it though. :)

here are some pictures of the day (not according to sequence) :

yeah, we're nuts :D

heard a knock from next door and got SCARED !

OOOOOO~ so the very romantic ~

I'm gonna eat you up !

stop it ! HAHA.

what would happen if she never came into my life?
i don't think my life would be this way.
she is always there for me whenever i needed her.
i hated it when we fought , but i guess that was one of the things that made our bond even stronger.
i don't care if we are going our separate ways later in our lives, i want you to always remember what we have gone through and i love you lots.
i didn't forget the promises that I've made, i will always remember and never ever break that promise.

you gave me faith when i didn't believe. 

so yeah, that's about it. 

my feet hurts ! ouch~ 

will update soon. 

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you ! 

<3,

miss awesome.

i don't believe in the word 'love'.

i don't believe in the word 'love'.
i only believe in God's love for us.
life is so sickening.
i regret all the things that I've done and when i think back, i felt so stupid.
i kept on wondering why have i done all those stuff and just stared blankly into space.
too late to regret now.
too bad for me. yay?

I'm going to a boys school to perform on Saturday.
i totally can't wait!
time to sing my lungs out :D

tomorrow is the last day of exams.
thank goodness!
i screwed up my history paper.
i don't plan to pass it anyway.
it is such a torture reading history.
and i am so annoyed with it.
moral paper was okay i guess.
hopefully it's not a 'C'.
i will drop dead instantly.
having mathematics exams tomorrow.
don't feel that stress now.
just can't wait for it to end.
then it's time to celebrate !


so that's all for today.
thanks for dropping by and God bless you !

<3,
miss awesome.

exams ~

i hate hate hate hate hate exams!
ished.
i am so pissed off.
i am pissed off that i didn't study and now my grades are gonna drop.
my daddy said he'll get me a iPhone 4s if i get second in class again.
oh mann.
i don't think i can do it.
hooray for me.
for this upcoming week, i will try to do the best i can.
pray for me yea :D
exams are over this week, then we have holiday !
can't wait can't wait !
then can go and party !
time to go to jusco and eat sushi :D



so yeah, that's about it for today.
hope i don't screw up another exam paper.

to all of you , thanks for dropping by, have a nice day and God bless all of you. :)

<3,
miss awesome.

don't chase me up the stairs! i'm scared!

don't chase me up the stairs! I'm scared!
this was said by miss gorgeous when we were running up the stairs to class.
i laughed so much !
exams are starting tomorrow.
i haven't even studied.
i don't want to!
i really hate the exams!
what is the purpose?
i am not into science at all!
if there was a better art stream class, i would have definitely went for it.
but now i am kinda regretting?
no choice now.
stuck for another year.
time pass so fast.
it's already end of the year.
feel like stopping time.


worship was not bad i guess.
i don't know whether i did well or not.
i was so scared.
everything is over now though.


thanks for dropping by and God bless you !

<3,
miss awesome.

if it's so easy, why don't you do it?

if it's so easy, why don't you do it?
all you know is just talk.
why don't you try doing it?
i am so annoyed!
so what if i am singing at a wrong key or whatsoever?
i am not a professional singer.
i am only doing all this for God.
not for you.
i am still learning.
i ain't some miss know it all.
if you think i sing badly, WHY DON'T YOU LEAD WORSHIP THEN?!

i don't feel like going to church anymore.
i feel like taking a break and just stay home.
i keep on wondering if i should really continue singing or just stop.
what happened today really made me feel that i sound horrible and this is just not my thing.
what can i do?
everyone don't even co-operate.
what's the point then?
all you do is just fool around.
spoilt brats.
just because you all are filthy rich doesn't mean that you can just simply do whatever you want.
can you just for once, think about how other people feel besides only thinking about yourself?
so selfish.
i am so broken inside.
i don't know what to do.
i really hate this.


put all these things aside, here are some pictures of my friends and i :)

Miss Gorgeous and i went to eat sushi. isn't it an amazing way of how she's holding the chopsticks?

friends :)

ADD MATHS! 

Modern Maths :)

we are a happy family !

i look ugly :(

laughing non stop instead of taking pictures :)

class rep and assistant :)

<3 it !

HAHAHA.

classssssss :)

couldn't stop laughing :P

they are so addicted to take my pictures. ished.

Hide ! teacher's coming!

funny !

guess what were we doing :D

my life is complete with them by my side.
they are the craziest people i have ever met.
miss gorgeous, you really really thought me what a true friend is.
and i really mean it.
thank you so much for all those memories we had together :)
i will never ever forget them.
i love you lots !
i love all of you crazy people !


listened to Pastor Prince's sermon today.
he is truly fantastic.
i love the way he preaches.
i really thank God for Pastor Prince.
i really wish i could see him real life.
anyways, his sermon was regarding God's love for us.
i was so touched by his sermon.
he made me realise how much my Daddy in heaven loves me.
He loves me so much.
and i love my Daddy too !
there is no one else like Him.
without Him, i don't know where i will be.
Dear Daddy in heaven , I LOVE YOU !

if you think that no one cares for you, think again.
God cares for you.
if you think that no one loves you, God does.
His love for us is wider than the skies and the seas.
He is truly amazing.
words cannot explain how great He is.

this is all for now.
thank you for dropping by and God bless you :)

<3,
miss awesome.

lesson learnt : bring your pencil case.

lesson learnt : bring your pencil case.
went out with miss gorgeous today, and we were lack of cash to get a drink.
it was so funny!
then she said that she actually had money in her pencil case but she didn't bring her bag.
we went to the food court to see if we knew anyone there and borrowed some cash :)
when we were on our way back to get the drink, we saw one of our school teacher there and i was holding my phone ! O_O
i guess she didn't notice.
we bought our drinks and met people we didn't want to meet.
what bad luck.
miss gorgeous was so annoyed and started screaming.
this is like the second time she screamed in public.
all i could do was laugh!
our pockets were totally empty at the end of the day.
i wanted some one's number , but unfortunately, he said no.
the first time it happened to us.
usually they willingly give their numbers :)

SCHOOL IS BORING! 
i am learning stuff that i don't want to know at all !
why am i learning add maths?
it is making my life so miserable !
that subject is so hard!
i am so pissed off now.
and the exams are so close.
i haven't even started studying yet.
bet no one will believe me.
HAHA.
i really really haven't started studying.
hooray for me !
the first day of exams will be a disaster for me :/

leading worship on the second week of October!
plus i have exams.
but I'll do it for God, the one i love the most.
gonna have fun and enjoy myself!
gonna sing some new songs too :D

so yeah. that's about it for today, thank you for stopping by and God bless all of you !

<3,
miss awesome.

excuse me, what are you trying to do?

excuse me, what are you trying to do?
throwing your life into a rubbish dump?
well, suit yourself.
what's the point of making you realise when you don't even bother what we say?
just stop acting.
it's so annoying.
live your life and leave all of us alone.

let's see :)
this week is just another ordinary week.
spent a lot of times with friends.
didn't even study yet.
and my exams are so close!
i can't finish everything in time.
i hate exams.
ished.
leave us students alone!
we wanna have fun!
school is so boring and i bet I'm gonna miss my school life when i leave.
that ain't fun :/

i love you for who you are.
is it so hard to notice that?

some things are just so hard to let go.
i feel so stupid doing what i have done.
no regrets though. :)

so yeah.
that's about it.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

love,
miss awesome.

another long long day.

another long long day.
had school today and it was so boring.
everyone was making so much of noise!
it was so annoying.
as if they even listen to me when i tell them to just shut up.
time pass so fast.
and i still have so much of homework to do!
i hate this so badly.
c'mon, GIVE US A BREAK!
it's so hard to finish everything when you have tuition everyday.
oh my goodness.
i just wish i can finish everything and be free!
i can do whatever i want after that.

please don't come back. 

I'm so fed up with this. 

don't expect me to reply your text. 

i don't want my life to be miserable cause of you. 

my friend got admitted to the hospital today. 

oh my goodness. 

i just pray that he'll be alright. 

hey bro, stay strong yea! 

to everyone, thanks for dropping by , have a nice day and God bless you!

<3,

miss awesome.

it was just another ordinary day.

it was just another ordinary day.
7th of September 2011.
MY BIRTHDAY !
it started out with everyone wishing me happy birthday.
then later on, the homework teachers gave was piling up!
what a fantastic day , i thought.
not much happened after that.
i went home and started eating like crazy :)
i hope i didn't put on weight!
then i had double tuition that day.
it was so boring!
then i went for my biology tuition and met one of my close friend.
he was being so random and i was so embarrassed!
he spoke to everyone who passed by and i was like WHAT?!!
so yeah, we talked for like half an hour before class started.
he went home after that.
i spent my time in tuition laughing non stop.
i think I'm crazy :p
all my friends also think i am!
ain't that awesome :)

the next day, my friends and i planned to go to the shopping mall next to our school and eat sushi!
before that, in class, during our English period, one of my friend suddenly choked while drinking water!
we were all stunned.
even teacher was stunned!
we didn't know what to do for a while, and then everyone started helping her wipe her table.
everything was wet!
so at the end of the day, i asked her in Cantonese, "hey, what happened to you? why you choked on your water when teacher wasn't even saying anything funny! "
and this was her explanation. :)
"at first i drank too much of water and felt hard to swallow all of it, so i tried to drink the water slowly. then my desk mate was talking to me and i couldn't digest what was she saying. so i find it hard to swallow my water and digest what she was saying at the same time and all of a sudden water just started splashing out and water even came out from my nose like a water pipe! "
all of us who were listening to what she said burst out into laughter.
everyone couldn't even talk!
all we did was laugh and laugh and laugh!
i still remember this so clearly.
every one's faces was red in colour!
and i laughed till i was banging the walls and ended up sitting on the floor laughing!
it was so funny, the way she explained it.
i am still laughing till now!
after that, school was dismissed and my friends and i went to Parade, that shopping mall.
we were walking around and waiting for my other friend to come as we are going to eat sushi together.
all my friends and i did was laugh and laugh.
yes, we're nuts!
people who were shopping there might have thought we're all crazy!
my friend finally arrived, wanted to kill her as she took so long and i was starving!
we ate and talked :)
then we went to this gift shop as my friend wants to get me a birthday present.
so i chose my presents and left.
we got into the elevator as we wanted to go to the top floor.
i went in and pressed every single button, except the emergency button of course.
my friends were scolding me while i was laughing happily in the elevator!
when we arrived at the top floor after going to the lowest floor to the highest floor, all of us were so dizzy and we couldn't even walk properly! we went back to school soon after that and went home shortly after coming back to school.

nothing much happened today.
everything is the same as always.
there are even more homework now and i am going to start doing them soon :)

happy birthday to you! 

i hope you know how much i love you. 

have a nice day <3

i love you lots!!

A real relationship,
Has fights.
Has trust.
Has faith.
Has tears.
Has hurt.
Has sweet smiles.
Has genuine laughter.
Has snorts because of the laughter.
Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments.
Has patience.
Has communication.
Has secrets.
Has jealousy.
and most importantly it has
♥ Love ♥

to everyone, thanks for dropping by!

have a nice day and God bless you! :)

<3, 

miss awesome.  

you can use chopsticks?!

a funny title right?
that was said by miss gorgeous when she saw me using using chopsticks.
and i just stared at her with a blank face.
HAHA.

so this is a summary of my 9 days of holidays.

the first few days, i kinda finished half of my homework.
then i went to gentings with my family.
i sat every ride i could sit.
not really scary rides though.
except for the one where you go up 20 stories high and just fall!
you will not even feel your chair!
oh my goodness.
one of the guys came down with a paper white face.
i wanted to laugh so badly.
he looked like he wanted to puke!
so yeah.
came back a day after that.
and then i was stuck with homework again.
didn't manage to finish it also.
i am so lazy!
then i went out with miss satay and miss gorgeous on a Friday.
went out hunting for dresses and hot guys.
unfortunately, we didn't find anyone good looking.
how sad.
end up screaming in my mum's car cause of something at the end of the day.
HAHA.
so i still have homework to do which i don't really wanna bother anymore.
i'll just get scolding from teachers tomorrow.
yay me :/


i love you. <3

thank you for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

<3,
miss awesome.

no meaning.

i don't know what to post actually.
i am just kinda bored.
don't feel like doing my homework.
*huge sigh*

nothing much happened this week.
all i do is play games and rot at home.
I DON'T WANT TIME TO PASS SO FAST!
let me stay home and sleep!
i don't wanna go back to school :(
eventually, i HAVE to go back to school.
ARGH.

that's all for now.
will update more if i have the time to come online.
thanks for dropping by and have a nice day!
God bless all of you :)

<3,
miss awesome.

please go and eat shit.

i am freaking pissed off with your idiotic attitude.
you are telling us all the advises but hey, LOOK AT YOURSELF.
ARE YOU SHOWING A GOOD EXAMPLE?!
unfortunately, you're not you stupid idiot.
don't tell me all the nonsense and crappy stuff when you don't even show a bloody good example.
i have been so freaking patient with you already.
everyone has been doing the same thing.
i really wished i had a lot of money now and just move out and not see you're fucking face anymore.
i can't believe i am a part of you.
all you do is use you're mouth to talk but there are no actions out of it.
SO JUST SHUT UP, SIT DOWN AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
LEAVE US ALONE, you bastard.
one day, if you did this again, i will fire you back with every nonsense you have done and see whether you can fight with me or not.
i don't think you can.
do you know what have you done?
guess you don't even realise it.
i pity her for going through this for such a long time.
i finally get how she feels.
if you really did this again, you are dead meat.
slap me all you want.
who the heck cares?
i will leave this place and never come back.
do not expect me to come back and get my forgiveness.
you will never get it.

this must be the worst post I've ever written.
i just want to let go all my anger.

so yeah.
have a nice day, thanks for dropping by and God bless you. :)

at last!

everything is finally over!
weeeehooo!
my results are satisfying.
but my results are worst than my mid year test.
how weird is that.

so yeah.
nothing much happened.
that's about it!
thanks for dropping by and God bless you :)

i am back!

so many things had happened this few weeks.
and as usual all my feelings are jumbled up. :)

EXAMS IS SUPERB NEAR aka tomorrow.
i haven't studied a single thing.
no one believes me.
how sad.
I REALLY DIDN'T STUDY OKAY!!

I'm sorry for what i did.
shouldn't have done that.
things has past and it's time to move on.
i don't know whether you are reading this, just want to tell you that I'm sorry.


i really thank God for always being right beside me, leading me to the right path and helping me to go through that pain and sorrow in me.
Lord, thank You! :)
I'm gonna worship lead this Sunday.
praying that everything will be alright.
i can't wait!

thank you for dropping by and God bless all of you! :)

a world of my own.

everything has changed.
whatever i wished for didn't come true.

i don't know who are you anymore.
you are so different now.
i don't feel like talking to you anymore.
you only look for me when you are all tensed and emo.
excuse me, who am i to you?

what to say?
it is just not meant to be.
i already knew it from the start.
why couldn't i let go earlier?
i must move on from something that i know will never happen.
there is no more faith in this.

school school school.
teacher's are complaining, students are complaining, everyone is complaining.
oh no.
i don't know what to do.
teachers kept on telling us on how we must respect our teachers and not criticise them behind their backs.
why does rumours spread so fast?
superb fast.
all we could do was just sit there and listen.
nothing much happened after that.


i am glad that it's getting better.
maybe, i suppose.
that tiny little faith in me is starting to grow.
i didn't forget all the things we've been through. <3


this song really touched my heart.
i haven't heard it in such a long time.
the song title is "we are the reason".
awesome song. :)
we are the reason that He gave His life.
we are the reason that He suffered and died.
He showed us a reason to live.
i love you Jesus!

that's it i guess.
thank you for dropping by!
God bless you! <3

i'm such a terrible person!

I'm such a terrible person!
i am so bad in handling the jobs that i have.
oh dear, i better change to be a better person.

i am a terrible class representative.
i eat in class, i don't control the class and many more.
and dear principal, please don't come and check on us!

the worst president on earth.
I've just realised that i have never listened to any of their opinions and only ordering to do things for me.
i am so sorry.
please forgive me and i will do better from now on!
and thank you to all the board members for being so helpful and cooperative!
love you guys *though you all piss me off sometimes :)* !


so let's put all these aside and talk about fun stuff!
my good friend and I won second place in a duet competition!
we never expected it at all.
when i found out, i just stood there and i couldn't feel my heart beat.
on the inside, i was extremely happy!
this was what i have dreamt of!
some people might say that we won cause of my friend who is popular.
but i don't care.
we did it together and it was team work!
i enjoyed the competition and had a wonderful experience with my friend!
i won myself a trophy and also a bouquet of flowers.
people kept on taking my flowers!
i love the trophy so much although there was a scratch on it.
pictures will be uploaded soon :)

school is so much fun nowadays!
everyday after recess, we'll eat in the class *i pray that none of the teachers will see this!*
and we laugh and laugh till we can roll on the floor!
today i was dragged out of the class by miss gorgeous while i was sitting on my chair doing my BM literature.
thank goodness no teacher was around!
last week was the best week ever!
we couldn't stop screaming, shouting and laughing!
because of this, our class got lots of complaints.
not a good thing.
i was a part of the complaint i guess.
useless class rep. :p
HAHA.
i still love 4 Cemp!
we are the craziest class in form 4!
we rock and roll in school !
wooohoooooo ! :D

i am currently so addicted to every song that i listened to.
i love the song fiction by B2ST.
songs sang by The Wanted is also not bad.
unique voices!
i am still listening to Westlife songs and some oldies. :p
jar of hearts by Christina Perri is awesome!
used to hate that song.
HAHA.


God is awesome, isn't He?
i love Him so much!
i really thank Him for all the things i have in my life.
without Him i am nothing.
i really thank Him for bringing me back into His presence again.
He comforts me and takes away all my anxieties.
thank You Jesus! <3


so that's about it.
thank you for reading my blog and thanks for dropping by!
God bless you !

A Well-Oiled Machine

I knew not to expect to get a car on my 16Th birthday. My dad let me know months ahead of time that although my friends were getting new cars, that wasn't going to happen for me. We simply did not have the money for such luxury.

But somehow, he found a way. It wasn't a new car. Far from it. It was 35 years old, in fact. But it was the coolest car our family had ever had: a 1966 Ford Mustang with a 351 Windsor engine. I was thrilled to get it.

Soon i was driving all over southwest Georgia, gleaming with pride every time i had the chance to show my car off to someone new. I got to know that car like the back of my hand, and I did my very best to take good care of it.

One of the things I had to do on a regular basis was make sure it had plenty of oil. I wasn't really sure why it needed so much oil, but I did my best to keep up with it.

After a while, though, the newness of having this great car began to wear off. Slowly, I began to pay less attention to its needs. Yet, I was still depending on it to take me to places i need to go.

One sweltering hot summer day my neglect came back to hurt me. It had been long since I checked the oil that was there was scarcely a drop of it in the engine. My beautiful Mustang completely overheated and the engine was ruined. All because i didn't understand the importance of oil.

I learned right away why oil is so important. It's a lubricant, meaning it helps the engine run smoothly and cuts down natural friction. If only i had learned that a little sooner!

As you and I go through life, our relationships are like the engine of a car. Sometimes there is natural friction. In fact, often people we love most are the people who can cause the most friction.

Kindness is the oil, or the lubricant, of our relationships. Acts of kindness help smooth out possible friction. Kind words cool down heated arguments.

As we become more like Christ, His Spirit gives to us the power to be kind in the midst of conflict. If we remember that, our relationships will run like a well-oiled machine.

PRAYER.
Lord God, I pray for Your grace as I pursue kindness in all my relationships. Thank You for the strength to be kind in difficult circumstances. In Jesus' name, Amen.

this is extracted from a devotional book.
i find it meaningful and decided to post it on my blog.
i hope this can be helpful to someone who is reading this post now.
God bless all of you! <3

The Only Name,

after such a long time, i finally felt this feeling again.
the joy that was in me was unexplainable.
that connection between me and Him was so bad.
and today during worship, i felt Him touch my heart.
i longed for that feeling.
He gave me the assurance that He is going to be there whenever i need Him.
i know He will always be there for me no matter what happens.
His love never fails.
i love Him so much, more than anything in this world.

let creation sing.

The whole earth overflowing,
with your power and your glory.
There is no one like you God
There is no one like you God

Mountains bow,
nations tremble,
at your feet we cry holy.
There is no one like you God
There is no one like you God

Let creation sing of the risen King,
let the universe resound.
With a shout of love,
we will give to you,
all the highest praise.

Let your light shine upon us,
let your light shine upon us.
For the glory of your name,
will be over all the earth.

Let creation sing of the risen King,
let the universe resound.
With a shout of love,
we will give to you,
all the highest praise.

Forever,Forever,I'll Sing.

the only name.

Your name is higher and exalted
far above everything that has name
Your name's the only name Jesus
by which all men can be saved

Your name is a strong tower
I run to you when I'm safe
my greatest on the Lord is to speak Your name

Jesus, My Lord Jesus Emmanuel
You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold You

Your name is a strong tower
I run to you when I'm safe
my greatest on the Lord is to speak Your name

Jesus, My Lord Jesus Emmanuel
You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold You

You've covered me, delivered me
Lord I have set my love on You
i dwell within Your secret place
under shadows mighty God


how great is our God.

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

worthy is the lamb.

Thank you for the cross, Lord.
Thank you for the price you paid.
Bearing all my sin and shame, in love you came
And gave Amazing Grace.
Thank you for the scares, Lord.
Thank you for the nail-pierced hands.
Wash me in Your cleansing flow, now all I know...
Your forgiveness and embrace.

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne.
We crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious!
High and lifted up
Jesus, Son of God.
The darling of Heaven, crucified...
Worthy is the Lamb.


with all i am.

into your hand
i commit again
all I am
for you lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever
I will worship
I will worship you forever

my favourite song :)

lead me to the cross.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemption's hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

all these songs mean so much.
God is really really awesome.
without Him, i will be nothing.
He always leads me to the right path.
He speaks to me when i need Him.
He answers my prayers.
He is everything that i need.
He is my God.
my one and only God i worship.

Lord, i really thank You for what You have given me for all these years. thank You for bringing me back into Your presence. i thank You so much. thank You. in Jesus' name i pray, AMEN!



let's see.
nothing much has happened.
i am just feeling so happy for what i have done.
i gave up my feelings for the guy that i have fallen in love with.
i am so proud to be single!
single life is awesome~
now is really not the time to date or anything like that.
i want to put my studies first.


i used to see all these couples together and wonder how come this beautiful woman is with such an ugly guy?
and why is this handsome guy is dating an ugly woman?
i have finally realised that love is not about your looks, your body shape or what so ever.
i want someone to love me for who i am and not for who i am not.
i am not a girl with chopstick legs or pretty eyes.
i am just who i am.
God created me in His image and i am proud of it!
yeah!

so that's it for today, will update again soon. :)

untitled.

untitled.
i don't know what to post about.
i feel so blank.
i am just staring at the laptop and wondering what to update about.

I've finished reading the romeo and juliet code.
it was awesome!
i loved it!
and my next mission is to buy 4 more books!
hooray!

so yeah.
that's about it i guess.


my dear brother,

don't always be so upset.
must keep on smiling!
you always say that there is no one there to listen to you.
there is.
there is always that one person who will always be there for you.
God is always there by your side.
anyways, i can always be your listener!
i am only a phone call away.
and don't worry, I'm not mad at you.
i understand how you feel.
just cool down and everything will be alright. :)

love,
your lil sis.

anything and everything.

it has been such a busy week and i haven't came online since i deactivated my facebook once again.
life without facebook is much better.
i prefer my life this way.

school?
let's see, my friends are all going crazy and i'm joining in!
we have been laughing non-stop everyday.
the teachers think we are crazy!
and yes, we are :)
i love being a part of this class.
they are all like my family. :)
there are competitions held.
and i joined the singing competition!
i was actually going solo, but then thank goodness i can partner with a friend of mine!
oh gosh, that is such a relieve!
we tried out our songs today and next week will be our competition.
i really really pray that we can go to the finals!
our competitiors are quite tough!
if you are currently reading this post, please pray for us!


life?
everything has been fine lately.
so far so good :D


i have nothing much to blog now.
just want my blog to stay alive!

i finally remembered what i wanted to post!

I've started to read novels again!
those novels i read are awesome!
so meaningful and so touching!

here are some books that I've read :












all these books are simply amazing!
my favourite was where rainbows end!
it was so nice!
the gift was very meaningful!



these are the books that i am going to read :






looking forward to reading both of the books!
i totally can't wait! :)


my next mission is to read books written by Nicholas Sparks. :)

that's all for now.
bye!

i am bored!

i actually have nothing to post.
i am just blogging for fun!
but now, i really need someone to talk to!
no one is entertaining me! :(

anyways, there is school tomorrow.
and i don't feel like going..
but i still have to go!
damn it.

so yeah.
bye!

i am exhausted~

i am so exhausted!
school is so frustrating!
that damn feeling you get when you have to wake up in the morning just to go to school!
can't i just sleep?


this few days were okay i guess.
except yesterday!
mr. mano's place was so cold i was freezing!
because of that and the cold weather this morning, i have a running nose.
wow.
ain't that just good?

got a new chemistry teacher.
i don't know whether to say she is good or she is terrible.
or maybe the chapter is just terrible.
ah.
i don't know.
so sickening.

i don't feel like blogging now.
i'm lazy.
will update more next time. :)

i lost faith in this feeling called 'love'.

i finally know what love is.
love is so fragile.
you can love someone and tell him or her that you will love him or her for the rest of your life.
then after a while, everything is just falling apart.
that is not even love.
i made a grave mistake.
a very big mistake.

there is no such thing as true love.
i don't believe in love anymore.
there is also no such thing as fairy tales.
i lost faith in this feeling called 'love'.

it's so hard to figure out what's happening.
even i don't know what to do.
i don't wanna keep my hopes high anymore.
cause i know it is gonna fail.
my heart aches because of what is happening right now.

is there still hope in this?
is there?
i hope there is.

my heart aches.

yes, i did a mistake.
no point trying to stay on the positive side.
things are falling apart.
badly.
i don't know what to do.
i am going to end up in pain and misery again.
AGAIN!
i regret for what i have done.

i don't know.

i don't know.
whether to believe or to lose my faith in this.
it's just so hard to go through this.
i hate it.
i hate it so much.

everything is mixed up.

many things had happened.
i don't know where to start.
all my feelings are mixed up.
love, hatred, happiness, sadness, and anger.


you always have no patience with us.
then you wanna get pissed off.
and you start scolding everyone although they have done nothing wrong.
it's you that is wrong!
why can't you realise that?
slap yourself man!
cause you're causing too many things to happen when they weren't suppose to be happening.
then you spoil every one's mood just because of what you did.
how nice is that?
it's not that we don't care about you.
we do, but you don't realise it.
you'll NEVER realise it.
i feel sad for her because she has been going through all these for so many years now.
i finally understand why you are acting this way.
i finally understood.
i hate you for not knowing that she was always there for you, always caring for what you need.
but you never ever did the same things for her.
YOU NEVER DID.
it's hard living with you, you know.
you always give us a hard time.
and that stresses me out!
i am sick of it!
when she told me the news, i was happy and also sad at the same time.
i knew how she felt years ago.
because of her compassion for you, knowing you will do something stupid, she chose to stay for the sake of her kids.
we weren't happy.
to see this happening.
we stopped them.
we did.
then slowly, as time goes by, you are just getting worst!
how can you be a proper example to us when you dun show any good things about yourself?
all we see is the bad side of yours.
and you always teach us about grace, but you have never shown grace to us.
which makes it so hard to accept.
sometimes i wish i could just kill you.
but it can't happen.


looking forward to this.
of course i am happy.
going to be another fun day after talking to them again.
kinda miss talking to them.
those times where we will laugh and laugh and have fun together.
so we went out for a walk.
i followed.
something told me it wasn't a good idea, but what else can i do?
stay there and rot??
so the journey started....
it was scary for me as the place was dark.
only a few street lights were on and the place was just creepy.
then here it goes.
so i was walking in front with Amelia and this guy, robin, was annoying me by steeping on my slippers.
man, do you have nothing else to do?
i got pissed off and told him off and so did the rest.
then he stopped.
on our journey back, he started again!
man, i was on fire!
he continued and no matter how many times i told him to stop, he didn't.
i felt like just taking him and throwing him into the drain nearby.
then, *plak* , my slippers were spoiled by him.
well thank you so much you bastard!
before this, my dad kept on calling me to come back to the house, but we were a long long way from home.
so robin already pissed me off, then my dad came and add oil into the damn fire!
i could have been a volcano which could erupt anytime!
so after he spoiled my slippers, i had to run bear foot back home.
my feet hurt so badly!
then i saw that look on my dad's face, all red and fierce.
i knew it wasn't a good sign and he's gonna start blabbing non-stop.
so we went home, on the way, he was mumbling by himself as i didn't bother about what he was talking about.
blah blah blah.
i was so heart broken cause i loved that slippers!
plus it was damn new.
shit you lah bastard.

the next day, my mum talked to his mum about it and his mum dragged the rest of them into this matter.
i was so annoyed!
they didn't even do anything wrong and you're blaming them for no reason?
wow.
so she asked him to apologise to me and also pay for the new pair that my mum is gonna get me.
he didn't even meant his apology.
he just did it so he could satisfy both parties.
i faked a smile and kept my mouth tightly shut.
i couldn't even smile actually, wanted to box him so badly.
i had to sing on that day so i decided to calm down so it wouldn't spoil my mood.
then after our mums have left he was talking about the slippers over and over again.
CAN'T YOU KEEP YOU'RE MOUTH SHUT ?
i didn't bother and just walked away.
i don't plan on talking to him again.
after this matter i am really starting to hate rich people.
some are really humble and kind, but this is just too over!
you are protecting your son for what he did wrong?!
can't you just tell him straight in the face that he had done something wrong?
if i were you i would have scolded him terribly till he wet his pants or something!
so yeah.
that's about it.
the names above are changed for some reasons.



all i do is just sitting down and wondering if i could just turn back time.
i wish i could undo what i have did that caused us to be this way.
i don't know what is gonna happen after the holidays.
hopefully we can talk to each other again?
i still miss those memories that we had for the past year.
those tears and the laughter that we had, will be always remembered.
always.



time to get excited!
but sadly there was nothing to be excited about since i had a terrible stomach ache before the camp.
that was just horrible!
there was nothing i can do but to go on and attend the camp.
so i reached school, half dead.
could not even walk properly.
anyways, let's get started.
so we waited half an hour for the students to arrive.
many were late!
kinda disappointed about that.
then we started with the official assembly and then started off with an ice breaking game.
then each group presented their yell.
after that, they all went to change as we all were going to play station games!
i was excited though i wasn't playing.
i briefed them on the rules and so, the game begun.
i was rounding the school checking on every group and also the stations.
not long after, the groups have finished playing and it was time for torture!
i asked all the students to gather at the back field.
they don't really have the idea of what we were going to do.
all they see was buckets of water every where.
then the board members and some seniors started to wet all the student!
that was fun!
even i got wet!
the water ruined all my name tags.
then we had cooking competition!
we were all starving!
then each group prepared a meal for the board members which was also the judges.
wow.
the food was awesome!
didn't know they were such good cooks!
i enjoyed all the food they had prepared.
it was awesome!
we had a break and continued with the indoor games.
we had lots of fun but sadly we had to call it a day.
it was a very good experience for me to get to know my society members even better.
it was a very very tiring day and i enjoyed it.


thank you for always being there for me when i needed you.
thank you for always putting a smile on my face.
and you sound so cute on the phone!
hehe.
i love you. ♥

one day i caught myself smiling for no reason, then i realized i was thinking of you.

what can i do?

wow.
i've just realised how emo i am when i blog.
mann.
ain't something good.
HAHA.

so.....
HOLIDAYS HAVE JUST STARTED!!
yay yay yay!
but i am stuck with homework.
i actually planned to go jogging in the morning which never worked out.
and i also planned to study and it didn't work out either.
anyways, this holidays, my mum sent me to vocal classes!
i am so happy!
i always wanted to go for vocal classes.
and now my dream is halfway fulfilled!
so far everything is going well.
now the only thing i wanna do is to straighten my hair.
hopefully my mummy will allow. *fingers crossed*

so yeah.
nothing much happened i guess.
HEHE.

don't leave me alone. stay with me, please.