wish you were here.

i thought i have moved on.
guess not.
i still think about you.
everyday.
every night.
i miss you a lot.
i feel like slapping myself sometimes when i think about you.
i want to move on.
but i myself don't want to let go.
why why why??!!

today in school...
i was moody as usual...
i want to say sorry to my dearest friends :

• ZOE BENVAIT

• MISS SATAY

i am so so so sorry for always bugging you guys and complaining this and that.
i know you guys are sick about it,
but you all were really caring and thoughtful and have helped me overcome situations.
thank you so much! :)

to ZOE BEVAIT,
in school,
people think we're together.
haha.
so funny.
and we do stupid stuff together and i enjoy it.
haha...
we eat in class, we sing and sing, we chat like mad, and many more!
i hope we can be in the same class again next year.
you are weird and fun and awesome!
sitting with you in class makes me feel so happy.
you were always there when i needed you.
thank you so much!
muackkksss!
sorry for all the annoying moments when i talk about him a lot.
i'm sorry...
i love you!

to MISS SATAY,
we sit together in tuition,
we laugh and laugh at mr. kok and mr. yap's drawings,
we eat sweets!
i also share the same stuff to you.
it is annoying huh?
i am so sorry...
you were also there when i needed you.
i chat and laugh with you like silly people...
we listen to songs together.
so fun.
thank you for always being there for me when i needed you.
i love you!!!
muackkksss!

this is a special post.
today, she stared out of the window,
stared at a tree.
it use to have pink leaves,
after she broke up,
there were no more pink leaves.
she looked at that tree, searching for pink leaves.
she did not find any.
and she said this,

"there are no more pink leaves. there is no more hope."

she looked so sad. she was thinking about him on the inside.
then her friend that was with her said
"there are two pink leaves there!"

she looked at it and feel much better.
then she sang.
there was wind and it felt so breezy.
she looked at the sky,
wondering whether she can forget all about it.
she continued looking and went back to her place.
she still misses him.
she had to let go of someone whom she loved and cared for.
it was so painful on the inside.
whatever she does reminds her of the memories they had together.
it left a deep cut in her heart.
she wished that she could turn back time and change everything.
for your info,
she still misses you.

P.S. : WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME.


<3,
ann ann.

everything has changed

it has been about three months now from the day i knew you till now.
so many things have changed.
i can't think of anything.
my mind is always blank.
i didn't know things will turn out this way.
all i do is think about those days when we do things that both of us enjoy.
now all i can think about is that most probably i will be alone now, without you.
i wonder if i can still enjoy my life.
i just want to be with you forever and ever.
to some people, they think it is impossible.
to me, i have that faith and i believe that we can.
do you have that faith in you?

and you,
IDIOTIC BASTARD, BITCH, SLUT and BIMBO,
you screwed up my life!
thankssss a lot mannn.
you really need to get some smacking from me!
YOU FUCK OFF LAH BITCH!
please go and sort out your private life before you bother about other people's life!
you look innocent from the outside.
but inside, *MY GOSH* you are like a devil!
i know it is not right saying this.
but yeah,
you are acting like one.
MANIAC.

so now i have no feelings at all.
feels so empty inside.
and special thanks to Miss Satay and Zoe Benvait.
without you guys,
i think i will be dead!
you all have helped me in so many areas of my life.
i enjoy sitting beside you all in tuition and in class.
my darling besties~
thank you so much! :)

P.S. : I WILL STILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT. i love you.


byezzz bloggieeee.

<3,
ann ann.

to someone special

darling,
i don't even think that you'll see this post,
but i just want to let you know that i can't let you go.
i really want to patch things up.
and i really hope that we can be like last time.
happy and enjoying each other's company.
now things are different and complicated.
i have no idea whether we should continue this relationship or not.
i feel so sad and moody without you.
you have changed my life.
i just can't imagine myself without you.
i don't want to leave you.
everyday i wonder why is this happening.
i really need a wishing star now.
it is so sad thinking about what will happen next and the consequences.
i hope that whatever that happens next will be good news and not bad.
will we be together till forever?
i have that faith,
but do you?
i thought it could last forever and i am still hoping.
i am holding on tightly and i am not going to let go.
i do not know what are you thinking and what are you planning to do next.
i am happy enough if you just text me.

i stared at your picture today and saw a tear rolling down my cheek.
i am so heartbroken.
i wish you were here with me.
i do not want it to happen again!
i just do not want to go through it again.
not again.
please don't leave me.

P.S.: I WILL LOVE YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME FROM LOVING YOU.

you're favourite colour. :)

blah blah blah

eeeeeeeeee!
i am so mad now.
dun even think it is worth to be mad for.
wtf.
i really can't take it anymore.
argh!
i can just explode right now!
got such people on earth!
my gosh my gosh my gosh!!
i have no idea where i can release my anger now.
haiz.
goodbye.

your hand in mine.

gosh gosh gosh.
i am so freaking dumb lah.
it was so obvious and i acted like nothing happened!
argh.
i'm sorry.
i can't wait for the next time we are going out.
we don't talk much, but yeah, it was fun.
having you by my side melts my heart.
you've changed my life.
gosh. what can i do without you dear?

"i wont leave you dear...."

this is what you said.
really felt like crying.
*me and my crying lerrr. ish.*
haha.
i wanna go out with you again.

i don't mind if we don't talk.
i don't mind if my friends see me with you.
i just don't mind.
i just want to be with you,
and tell you this three words:

I LOVE YOU.


darling, i will forever and ever love you.


byezz bloggie...

<3,
ann ann.

i love you~

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...
The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her...




this quote is so nice and awesome.
my gosh, it is the best that i have found.
ahhhhhh.
i'm melting....
so sweet.
hehe.

i miss you darling...




P.S. : I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.





byezz bloggieeee...

<3,>
ann ann.

raindrops :)

today...
went to school like normal.
then went for morning prayer.
morning prayer rocks! :)
then went to the lab.
and i felt so sleepy.
roseveen and i were chatting and chatting only. haha!
then it was sejarah.
gosh.. so many notes!!
salin until want to die adi.
then it was recess.
after that was bm.
teacher didn't come and so we went to the bookshop and went back to class.
felt so bored.
then it was english.
teacher made us laugh today.
and i was laughing the loudest.
gosh. so funny.
then we went to the bengkel.
*SO TIRED*
in class, i couldn't even open my eyes.
so boring.
i hate accounts! eeee~
then roseveen and i had to climb up 6 stupid flights of stairs.
so tiring.
then it was moral.
teacher gave some work.
i finished and chat with ruby and roseveen.
*KRINGGGGGGG!*
haha. wohoooo!
after that.
i went to parade with cheryl.
walk up and down.
then we went to get green tea ice cream!
hehe.
then we went back.
and it was raining like mad.
the rain reminds me of you.
then an aunty came and asked us whether we want to go to the bus stop with her.
she had an umbrella.
hehe.
the umbrella wasn't big enough to fit the three of us and all of us got WET.
haha. it was fun though.
then we waited at the bus stop hoping that the rain will not be that heavy.
then we quickly ran back.
i was ALL wet.
goshhh.
haha. then i went to cf meeting.
Pastor Elijah came and preached about LOVE.
it was AWESOME.
hehe.
then i went back home.
haha.


P.S.: I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU.


byez bloggie.

<3,
ann ann.

waiting.

waiting for you.
it is worth waiting for you.
some people are asking me to let go.
and tell me that it is not worth it.
but no. i won't let you go.
it is a promise and i will fulfil it.

it is so hard waiting for you.
you won't reply, you won't answer.
gosh.
I'm so worried.
can you please reply?

i don't care about what happened.
i just want us to be back like normal.
like always.
if i did anything wrong, then I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.

i will always be by your side and help you.
but you are really making it hard for me to do that.
can you please reply me?
i don't know whether you will see my blog or not,
but i just want to tell you that,
whatever that happened, let it go.
it is making so many people worried about you.

haizzz. your birthday is coming up and i have already got everything prepared.
i really want to celebrate your birthday with you.
please please please reply.
i am waiting for you.

i have been waiting for 5 days already.
and i will continue waiting.
i will.



P.S.: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS.
I PROMISE.


byez bloggie.

<3,
ann ann.

goodbye

O.o?
*confused*
did i do anything wrong?
if i did, i'm sorry.

i am holding on really tight.
i have no idea what i'm going to do next.
no reply, no answer.
still i wait.
and it makes no difference.
i'm scared.
scared of what is going to happen next.
i need you.
you changed my life.

haizz. no mood lah.

P.S.: I WILL FOREVER AND EVER LOVE YOU.

byezz bloggie...

<3,
ann ann.

moodyyyyy~

patience.
patience.
patience.

i have been waiting and waiting.
so sick of this word "waiting".

eric,
thank you for always being there for me.
i love you my dear brother! :)

today i went to parade.
again.
haha.
i see so many couples.
some don't talk at all.
some are so happy together.
and sometimes i see that some gals make the first to hold the guy's hand.
and the guy refuses.
wth.
the girl already made the first move and you're refusing??
oh my gosh.
GRAB HER HAND LAH! *doink*
so hurting to see that.
ahhhhhhhhh. then i went to see rings again.
hehe.
then went to the food court.
and i saw a group of youngsters.
look useless.
and there was this guy wearing a shirt saying
"FUCK YOU. YOU FUCKING FUCK."
wow.
it shocked me.
haha.
and some of the shirt was written
"好人" *so FAKE!*
haha.
then i see a lot of people.
the food court became a place not for eating,
but a place for youngsters to hang out and smoke.
wth lah.
some of the youngsters hair were like LIONS.
some were covering their eyes. *YUCK.*
haha.


the end! :)

P.S.: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

byezz bloggieeee.

<3,
ann ann.

hold on~

when you love someone and they break your heart,
don't give up on love, have faith and restart. :)

this is a song from jonas brother.
they ROCK.
i love this song.
-hold on by jonas brothers-
the lyrics is so meaningful.
haha?

TODAY!

i went to parade with cheryl.
wah.
we had so much fun.
we talked non-stop.
and we talked about A LOT of stuff.
haha.
then we went to see rings. O.o. look so niceeeeeeee.
eeeeeeeeeeeee!
then we ate ice cream and continued chatting.
haha.
then we walked here and there.
*still got a lot of stuff that happen. i don't want to tell.*
keke.

so yeahhh.
then before that(in school),
roseveen and i were acting freaking silly in class.
haha.
we laughed and laughed.
then we did part of our civics project.

feel so satisfied with our work.
hehe.
not many of the teachers came in.
thank goodness!
haha.
then i sang in class.
it was so boring.
felt so happy.
this would be the best year ever.
i never had so much fun.
this was the year where i:
-eat in class. *i ate A LOT in class.*
-became expert in saying bad words.
-had to walk up 6 bladdy fights of stairs. *i have no idea why i don't lose weight from it*
-acted like some silly person. *i rarely do it*
- sleep in class! *the best thing ever.*
-sing a lot in class! *oh my gosh. i LOVE singing!*
i think that's about it.
haha. funny.
and this is the year where i really got hooked up with facebook.
gosh.
and i must start studying already.
i don't seem to have any mood to study now.
I'm so going to die.
haizz.


oh ya! tuition!
hahaha.
tuition is so fun nowadays.
having so much fun with wan qi and the rest.
weeee~
and watching you smile melts my heart.
:(
i miss you.

the songs that I'm listening now, reminds me of you.
i love you.


P.S.: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.


byezz blogieeeee.

<3,
ann ann.