this is gonna be a super long post!

19/12/2010


my outing with Mae Gern. :)

at first, we were at church.
kindy church.
we reached quite early and the place was full with kids.
FULL!
they were running here and there, making so much noise and i almost fainted!
oh my goodness!
then Mae Gern and her sisters were helping out with the face painting.
i drew one for myself but it wasn't a success.
haha.
they were celebrating christmas, so there were a few presentations.
awesome ones:)
Daniel and Vincent were the emcees.
they were so funny!
i laughed and laughed.
the place was so cold Mae Gern and i were freezing!
then the kids had some snacks.
the place was in a mess.
then i wanted to take some pics with the youth.
so i walked back to the main church with a guy named Erwin?
i don't know how to spell his name.
haha.
we chat on the way there.
nice guy.
very matured also.
haha.
then i took pictures with Joseph, Sean, and Paul!
i forgot to take pictures with the rest of the youth.
sad. :(
then i went to empire with Mae Gern!
the fun begins~
when we were out from the car, we started talking and talking.
then we went to buy chocolate!



hehe!
i left one bar in my aunty's house.
ISHED!
then we took pics, buy stuff, and walk around.
i think we never stopped talking.
HAHA!
then we went to subang parade to buy drinks.



O.O!
then before going back, we saw a small shop selling bracelets.
so we decided to buy for each other.
then we went back to empire.
we continued talking of course.
then we went to a shop named diva!
it is an accessories shop.
we wanted to get a necklace but we didn't have enough money!
so we bought this.
and we put it together with the bracelet. :)



Friends Forever~

then my cousin came to fetch us home.
so we walked to subang parade again!
HAHA..
then while waiting for them we walked around.
hehe..
we went to a fitting room just to take pictures!
weeeeee~




shhhhhh~

then sent Mae Gern home.
it was starting to rain~
oh no.
then while i take my cousin down from the car, i was screaming as the rain was so heavy then i got all wet.
ish.
erm.
Joesph and Aaron was there.
i think Joseph think that i was mad?
haha.
then i did nothing.
just kept on eating and eating.
haha!


the next day~


time to go home. :(
it was the hardest thing to leave.
cause the people here are so nice! *besides those people who cannot handle the trolley properly*
and of course i couldn't leave my prince charming.
i felt a needle poked into my heart when i left.
so painful.
then slowly i tried to let you go.
but it was so hard.
i couldn't even delete you're photos from my phone!
haizz.
so the day went on as normal.
i had my normal life back.
this time, i didn't cry! :)
yay!
awesome!~


my prince charming
all i can say to you is goodbye. :'(


21/12/2010


i went out with miss mango!
weeee~
we had lots of fun!
we went there and played pump it up!
tried out new songs.
i liked the place where they shifted it.
but now they changed it back.
ished~
we went to buy baskin robins!
miss mango bought for me:)
then we went to padini!
miss mango wanted to buy sun glasses.
while she was trying on some, i did too!
HAHA..
then we went to see rings~
they were all plain and nice but it didn't suit me.
miss mango wanted to buy one but sadly the size didn't fit her.
then we went to buy tickets for the movie tron. :)
then we played pump again!
there was a girl who wanted to play.
so we helped her out.
think she is a newbie. :)
not bad for a new person:)
we also met john and Elaine.
john is one of the best players on ipoh.
wish i could be as good as him.
Elaine is his girl friend :)
and we also took photos.
pictures of this will be uploaded later yea:)
then we went to buy some snacks before we went into the cinema.
once we got in, there was a guy seating right next to our seats.
and he was taking pictures.
miss mango didn't want to sit with him so i did.
then not long after that, the movie started.
the guys who were seating above us made so much noise!
felt like turning around and slapping them!
when the movie started, the guy beside me started to video the movie.
i was like 'oh no'.
i pretended not to see anything.
if i told the authorities, he might come after me.
which was not a good thing.
so i kept quiet.
then two guys came and told him to stop taping the movie.
and also asked him to delete it.
so he did.
i felt relieved~
fuhhhh.
the movie was not bad.
except it wasn't really adventurous.
but i like the effects. :)
i think it would be better if we watched it in 3D.
but don't have :(
after the movie, we were so cold!
i was shivering~
then we went to see rings again!
HAHA..
after that we went to the supermarket.
miss mango bought seaweed for her bro.
then we went to wait for miss mango's mum at one of the entrance of jusco.
while waiting we saw jerry lok!
she looked pretty~
hehe..
then we were on the way back home~
but her mum wanted to buy some stuff so we stayed in the car.
including her brother. :)
then we chat.
HAHA..
they are so funny!
i mean miss mango and her brother.
haha.
we were laughing and laughing in the car!
then it was time to go home. :(


PMR results~


the day before, i was excited.
hoping i could get high grades.
i was very confident with myself.
then the next day, miss gorgeous called me.
she said she got only a 'b'.
so i congratulated her.
from then i was very excited to know what was my results.
i rushed my mum.
then we went out.
my sister wanted to follow.
ish.
while walking there my hands were sweating.
i was very nervous.
then i sat in front of my teacher.
i signed my name and she gave me my results slip.
i saw a 'b'.
at that time i only saw one.
then there was another 2!!
i was so pissed off with myself.
i came home, cried and cried and i locked myself in my room.
i was so upset!
i felt embarrassed.
all my frens got good grades while i got bad ones.
now i know why i cannot do last minute studying.
a very bad habit.
:'(


CHRISTMAS DAY!


it was Christmas!
i was very happy once i got up.
i left for church with my dad and sis earlier as there was practice.
so we went.
by the time we reached there, the church wasn't opened yet.
so we waited.
then i came down from the car and shut the door.
and i shut the door together with my phone!
my phone was stuck in the door!
i felt terrible for my phone.
thank goodness it wasn't greatly damaged.
then i went to the kids room with Sarah to sort of help them blow balloons?
i didn't do anything at all.
all i did was talk!
then it was time for worship and performances.
my performance was first!
oh no.
i was nervous as usual.
i think i did okay?
i wasn't confident with the audience.
aiks.
i will try and do better!
then after some slide shows and a short message, we watched our youth video.
it was a comedy and a touching story at a same time.
i liked it a lot.
haiz.
i wasn't in that movie.
sad case.
HAHA..
then after that we all ate.
then i went to chat as i was missing for a month.
went to kl.
HEHE..
i missed all of them so much!
i was very glad to come back and meet them again. :)
then i left with my mum.
we went to see show houses.
it was big and pretty!
so i took a picture there. :)


here it is! this is the master bedroom.
nicely decorated :)
loved it lots!
then we headed home.
was a tiring day. :)


my ex.


you you you.
i still think of you.
only sometimes.
about the days we had.
but it was the right decision for me.
to leave you.
you started falling in love with another girl which really broke my heart.
i was so heart broken when i broke up with you.
when i saw you the other day, i really broke into pieces!
seeing you reminds me of everything that we have been through together.
last month i viewed you're blog again.
saw that only one post that you have posted for me.
you said we could be together.
no matter what happens.
you said that you will love me forever.
*sighs*
i thought we could really be together forever.
things change and people change too huh?
i just want to thank you for such an experience.
i learnt that i should not trust a guy so fast.
i should not have put all my trust in him.
that was my lesson.
good luck with that girl yea:)



myself.


i have been mostly online and texting nowadays.
didn't even touch the books i bought.
aiks.
and sadly to say, i have fallen in love.
again.
and again, i am trying to let go.
it is such a hard thing to do.
but i am still letting go bit by bit.
i hope it will become a success of me letting you go.
and i also hope that you only treat me as a sister and nothing more than that.
i really hope things will not get worst.
i just leave everything to God and i know that He will know what to do. :)
God is awesome:)

i love you. i really do.

my prince charming 2.

i am officially leaving you.

my feelings was right.

we could not be together.

110% cannot.

life is so complicated.

i wonder why i met you.

now i am facing this, fighting this feeling on my own.

i am really glad that i met you.

as a friend.

but i kept my hopes too high and expected too much.

life is so unpredictable.

my last words were 'bye!'

and that was so sad.

i really hope we can keep in touch.

you don't even look like you want to talk to me.

did you find out about my feelings?

or i am just so sensitive?

i hate it when questions pop into my head.

questions which i could never answer.

i really pray that i will forget you.

i really hope so.

but i am still keeping you in my mind!

thinking of you, every minute and second.

my heart breaks when i think about you.

my heart was breaking to see you today.

i still remember, the first time we met.

the first time we chat.

i remember what you wore, clothes, shoes, and you're jeans.

i could never forget.

never.

i know i will be very sad leaving kl.

missing the awesome youth here.

missing you.

so i planned to keep myself occupied with friends.

i just hope my parents allow me to go out.

i do not want to sit at home and think of you.

to my friends and family, i am sorry.

i am sorry for always talking about him.

i know it is sickening.

but i don't know how to express my feelings.

i just don't know.

you might think i am crazy posting this silly stuff.

but these are my feelings.

my true feelings.

this blog is the only place i can type and express my feelings.

now i wished that you know how i feel.

so that i won't keep this feeling in me.

it is so painful.

but i am not sure whether to take that risk to ruin our friendship.

i am always laughing on the outside.

but on the inside, i am dying.

dying slowly.

i wish that i can wish upon a star.

wishing that my wish would come true.

i guess it is time to put all these things aside.

my last word, 'bye'.

my heart breaks.

to leave.

i will still love you.

but i am really trying to let you go.

i am really trying.

my prince charming.

i am leaving ipoh soon.

guess i won't be seeing you again.

till next year i guess.

but it seems you're busy with you're career.

i have to stop keeping my hopes too high.

one day when i find out the truth, it is going to kill me.

i actually planned to tell you before i leave.

but if you know how i feel, i am scared you will avoid me.

but if it is the other way around, i would be happy till i can fly!

and now i decided not to tell you.

or maybe i will.

ahhhh.

i don't know.

my feelings are all mixed!

sometimes i feel like slapping myself.

seriously.

i am over reacting!

*sighs*

if you are not for me, i just pray that this feeling will just go away.

just leave me.

leave me alone.

i still love you.

you and me?

you're my prince charming, but i am not you're cinderella.

am i?

i just wish somehow that i will find out that answer.

i am going back to ipoh soon.

too little time to find out that answer.

it's just too little.

i hope and pray that it will work out.

i just hope so.

i love you.

my mixed feelings

well, guess what?

i fell in love again.

yes, again.

i have this terrible feeling in me that we won't be together.

it tears me apart.

or maybe i am just thinking too much.

or my feelings are true.

we may not be together.

ahhhhh.

what am i going to do?

sit here and do nothing i guess.

all i do is think everyday about those stuff.

oh my goodness.

i am thinking too much aren't i?

*sighs*

*slaps myself*

that feeling won't go away. it won't.

i love you!

my boredom. :(

oh my goodness.

i am so bored nowadays.

today i went to get bakery stuff.

going to make cookies again. :)

weeee~

i don't know what to blog now.

HAHA.

update more later. :)

oh my goodness!

i am so bored now.

oh my goodness.

feel like sleeping, but as usual i am lazy :)

and now i am watching some singing competition.

the singers are so good!

gosh.

i wanna be like them.

but too bad i don't have the confidence.

i just don't have it.

how sad.

i also wanna join competitions.

i want!

but if i join, sure got tons of stress.

maybe i'll just faint during the competition.

HAHA.

cause if i join, sure very tense between the contestants.

but it is my passion, i have to do it?

hmmmmm.

the contestants are doing so well!

my voice is not even like that!

HAHA.

i am so dead. :)

my holiday in KL!

my holiday here is so fun!

fun fun fun!

we had a lot of jokes and kept on laughing and laughing.

my uncle is a funny man. HAHA.

i had great times with my aunty and cousin.

and for the first time, i baked cookies!

it turned out well and also tasted good!

i'm going to make another batch of chocolate cookies!

weeeee~

next week, i am going to play pump it up in berjaya times square!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!

here i come mannnn!

i bet it is damn nice.

i totally can't wait.

i am also going out with Mae Gern again next week!

not sure yet about the day, but we are going out!

can't wait can't wait!

yesterday i went to church for worship practice.

it was awesome.

at first i was singing for fun, but then at the last minute a couple could not make it so i joined in!

wow.

it was amazing. :)

then we went to summit and played bowling :)

HEHE.

while waiting, Mae Gern and i went to play basketball.

we got better and better.

i still wanna play!

HAHA.

the guys took the lane first.

ah, before that i MUST tell you that you better not go there.

the service there really pissed me off.

i nearly gone mad!

actually i was already insane!

then Mae Gern, Xavior and me took another lane. :)

Mae Gern won!

wohooo!

my balls keep going in to the drains.

AISH.

then we went to eat! :)

i chat with the guys *some only* and they are SUPER friendly!

SUPER!

they are so much better than the guys in ipoh!

oh my gosh.

and they're not bad looking also :)

HEHE.

so the day ended like that.

today's worship went well.

awesome i guess :)

then once i reached home, i straight away on the laptop and started using it.

till now.

HAHA.

26/11/10 loves:)

today i went to watch rapunzel!

it was so nice.

it was scary, sad, happy and funny all together.

haha.

and i got to see Mae Gern! weeeee~

i may go out with her again tomorrow to a new shopping mall named EMPIRE.

sounds nice.

can't wait to go.

and i can't find pump it up!

summit didn't have it.

oh gosh.

i wanna play it so badly!

i wanna try out the latest and advanced version!

I WANT I WANT I WANT!

haha.

i am mad, crazy and happy at the same time.

haha.

today in summit, i saw like two hot guys.

one of them stared at me.

O.o

so hot i tell you.

so hot.

one was watching the same show as me and the other one was at the counter.

WOW.

awesome:)

then i came home.

so tired.

then we went to pasar malam.

bought stuff for dinner.

then i continued to online of course.

haha.

my neck has been pain for the past hour.

i think we are going out later to send my uncle home.

he is going back to Singapore.

then tomorrow i will be with my cousin!

my aunt will be going to a seminar.

aiks.

and there are people coming like 2a.m. in the morning.

neways, i plan to go out for shopping tomorrow with my cousin hoping to find that pump it up.

AHHHH!

i want!

hahaa.

oh ya!

i wondered if i have lost weight.

i look thin in the mirror.

i am not boasting.

or maybe it's the mirror's problem.

haha.

but i certainly hope i have lost weight.

i haven't been doing exercises lately.

it always look like it's gonna rain and i am so lazy to go out.

i smell food now!

bet it tastes nice too.

weeee~

i am so hungry.

and i am going to eat now!

bye bye!

-written by: lil angel/miss awesome -

oh my goodness!

why is everyone getting my number?

who is spreading it? oh my gosh!

it is so annoying.

and these people know me but i don't know them.

HEY, WAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME HUH?

stop disturbing me lah please!!!!

i have been sitting in front of this laptop for the whole day already.

so bored lah.

and i am so sleepy now.

should i go to sleep?

NO.

so lazy to walk up.

haha.

now i am eating an apple. hehe:)

and shit.

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

eeeeeee!!~~~~

so goodnight.

-written by : miss awesome/lil angel. -

whoa!

i just reached kl not long ago.

about 2 hours?

today kinda boring.

everyone is busy and my cousin is going of to her in-laws house.

i am going to be here with my aunty and uncle.

wee~

i guess i am going to be stuck with my cousin's laptop until late at night.

i am going to see mae gern tomorrow!

i finally get to see her after such a long time. :)

i cannot go jogging!

it is going to rain here!

how sad..

haizzz...

so now i am going to facebook!

byeeee~

-written by : lil angel/miss awesome-

my dear outing:)

today, i woke up early, packed my stuff to go to kl.
so then i got ready to go to my outing with lil mango, her bro and sze min. :)
then once we reached, what else could we do?
GO TO CAPCOM:)
we played for an hour there... *wonder how much money spent on that stupid machine.*
then we walked around and chat.
i went to look at some rings, but it wasn't worth it.
i couldn't believe it was that expensive for a plain ring.
and we went back to play again.
we played the basketball too!
and guess what?
that bastard's friend was there.
ewwww.
he smiled at me too.
i was like "erm, are you okay? why are you smiling?"
haha.
addiction:)
then we bought drinks, food and stuff to watch Harry Potter:)
we waited for quite some time till we could go in.
then this melon asked us to squeeze in to get in faster as there was happiness?
i have no idea what was he crapping.
haha.
then it started out scary.
i jumped out of my seat, covered my eyes with my jacket and even hugged lil mango.
yes, that movie was scary at times.
i nearly got a mini heart attack.
haha.
and the girls sitting at the back was making a lot of noise.
ish.
feel like turning back and smacking them.
they chew their food so loudly!
my goodness, where are your manners dude?
then erm, one of the elf in the movie died:(
i started crying and then it was lil mango's turn.
it was so sad!
the ending was awesome:)
it makes you feel like watching the next part!

then i wanted to play pump it up again.
lil mango didn't want as that fucker was there.
we were standing outside the cinema and he's dad saw me.
then he saw me too.
i didn't bother and continue chatting.
bastard.
then we went down to see lil mango's mum.
then we went up again.
i saw him sitting with that girl that he likes.
hey, didn't you notice that he stinks after playing?
total eww.
then we played again.
he was sitting with two girls at the back.
one was the girl he likes and the other was the girlfriend of that guy that i met.
all oso lala zai and lala mui.
after we finished then it was time to go home.
for me.
haha.
i didn't take a lot of photos but i guess lil mango did?
got videos too:)
i am veri lazy to upload all these now.
so you all slowly wait lah.
hehe.


i am going over to my cousin's place tonight.
then i'll be going to kl the next morning.
i am going to miss so many people!
especially my youngest sis.
haiz.
that sad feeling in me won't go away.
i think i am going to cry when i leave:'(

in kl, i planned to go shopping, play pump it up!, and read my books.
the pump it up there is upgraded and i can't wait to go there and play if i can.
i guess i could.
haha.
i packed a huge bag! although i am only going for two weeks or less.
haha.



do guys really appreciate girls nowadays?
no. they don't. some will but i guess that kind of guys is going to extinct!
all guys do is :
-break promises *their specialty*
-break a girl's heart
-tell you lies
and many more of course:)
haha.

i got to end here.
will be updating my blog more often now.
see ya!

Don't promise someone if you can't keep that promise.
Promises are meant to be kept and not made to be broken.

-written by: lil angel/miss awesome-

so what?

i am so relieved nowadays.
although my phone is no longer ringing or vibrating.
haha.
it wasn't a tough break up.
it was a happy one although it was sad at first.
i feel so stupid being cheated again.
so yeah.
WATEVER!


erm.
i am going out with miss mango this Wednesday.
oh my gosh. i can't wait!
i want to watch harry potter!
weeeeeeeee~
hehehe.
i just hope that i won't meet him on that day.
it would be such bad luck.

i changed my hairstyle already.
didn't want to keep the old style as i was getting bored of it.
so this is my new hairstyle:)









it looks kinda funny at times. but i like it. hehehehe!


i finished my book.
sea change.
that book was totally awesome.
perfect ending.
nice characters.
WOW.
now i am reading ordinary ghosts.
still stuck at the 9th page.
hahahah.



i will not be updating soon.
depends on my mood.
teehee.


-written by : lil angel/ miss awesome.-

BOOKS!

previously i bought 5 books and all of it have arrived.
i just started reading one of it yesterday.
it is so darn interesting.
awesomely written.
here are the books that i bought:


this one is gonna be a romantic book. can't wait to read it!






i am not really sure about this book, but it looks awesome:)




this is gonna be another awesome book! can't wait can't wait!





my friend said that this is kinda boring. who cares? I'm gonna read it anyway.
hope it will be nice:)





this is the current book that i am reading.
OH MY GOSH.
THIS BOOK IS TOTALLY AWESOME!!
i already read more than half of it and i can't wait to see wat the hell is the ending!!



this few days my mood is swinging like i roller coaster.
i get mad and happy fast.
after a while my mood will just change.
wat is wrong with me??!!
guess i am totally nuts.
i thought it would be so much fun after pmr but it is the opposite!
i get more stressed than studying and there is absolutely nothing to do in school.
NOTHING.
we just hang out and chat.
that's all.
how boring.
MISS GORGEOUS, I WISH YOU WERE HERE.
and to my baby, don't be so sad yea.
i am very worried about you.
i want to see you smile again.
you are my everything.
I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!
and i can't wait to go out with little mango:)


-written by : little angel/ miss awesome-

you might think i'm crazy.
well, yes i am.
you told me something i couldn't forget.
and it broke my heart.
i made you so important in my life.
i feel that all of it is wasted.
dumped into a giant garbage bag.
and yes, i am thinking too much.
till my head can burst one day.
everything has changed.
EVERYTHING.
i am so confused.
i don't know what to do.
i just sit there and think all day.
don't wanna update more. bye.


miss gorgeous, i need you.

guys~

all they do is break a girl's heart.
then you'll start finding out the truth and it will hurt you even more.
they have nothing else to do is it?
can't you guys treat girls with respect and loyalty.
we girls are not your barbie dolls.
we are human beings.
not your play toy.
if you're not interested, get lost.
don't go and break someone's heart.
you guys do not know how painful it is.


TREAT A GIRL WITH RESPECT. IF NOT, YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT AT ALL.

my half dead blog!

my blog is half dead now!
hehe.


miss GORGEOUS!
the only person who drives me nuts all the time!
there is only like 3 more days left to be with her.
time pass so fast.
i remember everything that we used to do together.
we laugh together,
we eat together,
we sing together!
those days are going to fade off soon.
then in November, nothing is gonna be like how it used to be.
i gonna start getting bored in school without you.
sad. :(
i just hope we will continue to stay this close.
i love you lots!
my best buddy. :')

times which i will never forget.


outings:)
i went out with miss gorgeous for many times already.
have so much fun with her.
hehehe.
and next month is lil mango's turn:)
weeeee~
and and!
my second month anniversary was the best:)
hehe.
pictures will not be uploaded.
*too lazy.*
so yeah.
looking forward to next month.


after pmr??!!
after pmr i still have to go to school.
aiks.
i'm so lazy!
and it is SUPER boring in school.
all we do is scream and shout in the class!
haiz.
the activities which are organized are so boringggg!
then we have to listen to speeches which are dumb and disgusting!
ewwwwwwww.

you.
you have changed my life.
you always turn my frown into a smile.
i love you!
don't ever ever let me go.









that is all for now. :)
byeeee!





-written by miss awesome/lil angel-

how what when which who where??!!

ahhhhh.
pmr is in 13 days.
i haven't study anything.
i did a bit but nothing is going into my brain.
in school i see students studying.
when i see them study, i feel scared and unprepared.
a lot of people were saying "hey. just chill. pmr is just a piece of cake."
i don't think pmr is a piece of cake.
if i get bad results, i will let my parents down and everyone who supported me.
i feel so useless now.
i feel so lazy.
i've been watching tv, listening to music, playing my guitar and texting.
and when i think back, if i haven't done all those stuff, i had so much time to study.
i have wasted all those days, hours, minutes and seconds.
i guess i better start studying huh?


oh ya. i changed your name from miss awesome to miss gorgeous. :)



i love you darl :)


-written by miss awesome/little angel.-

this is gonna be a LONG post!

7th September
my birthday!!!
i was so excited the minute i woke up.
i knew that it was going to be an awesome day.
i woke up very early to wait for miss awesome and little mango to come to my house.
when they both reached, we all chatted non-stop.
then they played with my sisters.
after that we waited for my mum to come back and pick us up to jusco.
once she reached home, all of us hopped into the car.
then we reached jusco.
and the fun begins:)
we were walking in when miss awesome nearly got hit near the ticket entrance.
thank goodness she wasn't hurt.
little mango and i were laughing and laughing.
then little mango and miss awesome wanted ice-cream.
so we went to McD.
after buying ice-cream, we went to play pump it up.
this is where and when little mango learnt how to play pump it up.
i guess she's addicted like me now.
then it was almost time to go to kbox.
we waited for my godbro, CK, and Mr. rainbow:)
then we went in.
miss awesome, little mango and i sang like crazy girls.
after paying the bill, we straight away went out cause there was no other song to sing.
then we went to play pump it up again.
we wasted lots of money there.
but we had fun. :)
all of us skipped lunch.
then we were walking around jusco.
and this question was frequently asked "where are we going next?".
i started to feel frustrated actually.
then we went into some shops.
urgh. so boring!
then we went up again.
but this time we went to the other capcom.
Mr. rainbow and miss awesome went to play some kiddy game.
miss awesome was so funny.
she kept on saying bad words.
after that we went to play pump it up again!
a lot of videos were taken.
miss awesome looked funny as she did many funny moves. :)
hahaha. there was no where else to go.
then little mango's mum was getting mad.
we ended the game and quickly go to the supermarket. *miss awesome wanted to buy some stuff*
and then i called my dad to come quickly.
we waited outside kfc and my dad asked me to go to the other side of jusco. *wat the toot!*
little mango and i quickly ran to the other side. *miss awesome was suppose to follow also, but our plans changed*
then we bumped into ken ee.
i told him we were in a rush and quickly ran.
after that we sent little mango home.
when i reached home, i started to open all my presents.
i opened miss awesome's present first.
it was a card! there was a bookmark and a few mentos paper inside too.







after reading the card twice, i started to cry.
oh gosh.
it is not an effortless present.
i know you did it with your heart and i appreciate it.
thank you so much!

now it was little mango's turn.
and this is what she got me. :)

a handmade card.

a purse and a handmade photo frame.
thank you so much!!

then carven came by my house to give me this:

a dress! but i don't look nice in it.
haiz.
neways, thank you!

what was the ending?
little mango, miss awesome and i got scolding.
a great ending huh?
haha. we were all exhausted.
but i know we had fun! lots of fun!



16 September
it was Brandon's birthday party.
i went there about 9 in the morning.
and almost all of us were there already.
they were filling up balloons for the water balloon fight.
i was waiting for sarah and yan yee.
but sadly, they didn't come.
and i was the only girl. lucky hoh?
they started the game and i was there doing nothing but laughing.
the opposing team, Brandon, Raphael, and Kent was aiming for me.
aiks. lucky Daniel and Bryan saved me. hahahaha.
the first round ended and i thought, "yay. finish adi!"
then Aunty Gladys came out and told us there were more balloons!
i was like i'm so dead this time.
so we went to the park again and played.
this time i got wet.
lucky my pants was wet only.
the guys were ALL wet. weeeeeee~
hahaha. then there was a third round.
ah yo! then i was half wet already.
ished. i didn't want to get wet.
thanks to Brandon i did.
eeeeee!
then we ate lunch and the party was over.
i stayed there a bit longer.
too lazy to go home.
then after a while i went to jusco with little mango.
we played pump it up and those malay freaks were taking our pictures.
little mango's mum got mad and didn't allow us to play anymore.
thank you so much you babis.
then she made us go out of capcom.
i was like shit. and i still have tokens!
haha. then little mango told me to play last round.
then we did.
after that we quickly ran out of there.
i couldn't meet Mr. rainbow.
so sad.
nothing else happened on that day.


17 September
went back to school as usual.
and i met miss awesome after 9 days.
missed her so much.
we both brought history reference book but didn't end up studying.
we ended up chatting and laughing the whole day.
then we planned to go parade.
but it was too last minute.
so we didn't go.
later in the afternoon, miss awesome came to my house and we planned to do arts.
but the whole time she was here, we played computer and went to the park.
haha. we didn't do any of our homework. and we didn't study.
cool huh?
i took miss awesome to woodlands *it is a park*.
we went there to play the swings.
we prank called a guy.
and we had fun doing it.
he was asking and bugging me about miss awesome.
he wanted to know who is she.
but she prefers her identity to be hidden.
although we are younger, he should respect people's privacy.
he asked his friends to call miss awesome and find out who she is.
wtf rite?
then we went to tuition as usual.
Mr. yap drew a funny looking jellyfish and a squid.
i took a picture of it. haha.
I'll upload it next time.
the day ended with me playing on my tiles like a mad person. :)


18 September
my happy day!
it was my one month anniversary with Mr. rainbow.
and i wanted to see him badly.
luckily, my sister said she wanna go jusco and my mum brought us there.
i didn't really met him, i only saw him. and it was less than 5 minutes.
:(
then i decided to go and see him.
i told my mum i wanted to go upstairs and she allowed me.
i brought my sister along.
on the way there, i saw Elaine.
she was smiling at me and i started to blush so i looked away.
hehe.
then when my sister and i reached there, he wasn't playing.
eeeeee!
haha.
i didn't want to go in.
i felt uneasy.
so i just went off with my sis.
we ended up racing each other back to kopitiam.
i let her win cause i didn't want to look like some fool running in jusco.
haha.
then i went home.
at night, i went to eat dinner with my mum and grandma.
we ate in wong kok.
after i finished, i looked at the people around me and i spotted this heartless guy.
he was there with his wife and two kids.
one boy and one girl.
i think the other couple with them were their friends.
they were arguing about something and this guy just shut the menu and hit it at his wife's head.
wtheck?
i wanted to shout at him so badly. how can he treat his wife like that??!!
then he took out his laptop and went on facebook.
while logging in, his daughter started crying for some reasons.
then he scolded his wife.
he didn't even bother to help his wife.
he ended up playing restaurant city on facebook.
this guy really deserves a HUGE AND GIGANTIC SLAP!
or maybe just fling him into outer space.
what a bastard.
i told my mum and she told me that the guys in this generation is like that.
haha.
then we went home.
and i was playing pump it up as usual.
i want to buy the mat after pmr!


STUPID PMR!
i am so crazy right now.
i want pmr to be abolished now!
i didn't study a single thing yet.
i know I'm gonna be dead on the examination day.
i just pray that i will have mood to study later.
good luck to every form 3 student out there. :)


sorry for late updates. i didn't have mood to update my blog.
will be updating it lesser now.
have to focus on pmr.




to Mr. rainbow:
i will love you forever and ever.





-written by miss awesome/ little angel.-

nearly died!

today i woke up at 6.
had jv meeting. ished.
then after the meeting, my mei mei and i went to parade.
hahaha.
it was so fun.
i haven't talked to her in months!
i was so happy that i got to go out with her. :)
i bought her to t-shirts for her birthday.
hehe.
she bought me one also.
kekekekeke.
then my mum came.
we shop till 4.
oh gosh.
my legs were killing me.
but i still had to continue.
aiks.
then i went to buy my bag!
my first one.
haha.
i wanted to sleep, but i couldn't.
haiz.


i am damn freaking moody now.
i have no idea why.
you sluts have nothing else to do but to bug other people's life is it??!!
they are just driving me nuts.
find something else to do lah bimbos.
i just can't believe i am dealing with this shit!
wtf.
and that stupid stk go and add me back.
EH.
please lah.
you are the one who deleted me then you add me back.
i thought you wanted to end the stupid relationship as friends??!!
fucker.
i can't believe you are on their side.
i thought you were someone who will never do that.
well, you have changed a lot.
to the bad side.
i just wanna wish you good luck dealing with those bitches.

girls nowadays have monkey brains i think.
girls like them.
ished.
sluts.



dear, i love you!


bye bye bloggieeee!

<3,
ann ann.

todayyyyy

today was BORING.
celebrated merdeka today.
it was so darn boring.
i slept during assembly as our principle couldn't stop talking.
it was so annoying.
and there were so many speech.
ished!
after that, 4 rose performed a musical sketch.
it kinda woke me up.
haha.
it was so funny.
they deserved to become the winner. :)
then i went makan with my dear dear friends.
and good news!
Joyce came back after her long holiday. :)
after that the bell rang and i quickly ran up cause it was Pn. Safiah's class.
i reached and ran to my class.
*SHIT*
teacher was in class adi.
i went in and she didn't let me sit yet.
she was scolding one of the students at that time.
aiks.
she wasn't in a good mood.
i thought i was going to get demerits.
thank goodness i didn't.
after a while she allowed me to sit down.
fuhhhhhhhhh.
then she gave us homework.
she was the only teacher who gave homework so far.
eeeeeee.
i dun wanna do. :(
then she went off.
i started to sleep when i heard a few of my classmates talking about our school's history.
i decided to join.
haha.
we talk and talk.
we laughed and laughed.
the teachers which pass by didn't even bother about us.
we were talking about all those ghost stories.
and we ended our chat talking about class party.
ahahaha.
AWESOME!
then i headed home.
after sending adrian home, it was my turn to go home.
and amazingly, i didn't bring my keys.
i had a feeling that no one was at home.
and my guess was correct.
no one was.
i was like *SHIT MANNNN.*
i had to borrow uncle's phone to call my mum.
and she couldn't come back fast.
haiz.
i ended up in my neighbour's house.
i stayed about 20 minutes?
then my dad came home. fuhhh.
thank goodness.
i ate my lunch and now i am here. hehe.
i got to go now.



bye bye bloggieeeee~

i love you!


<3,
ann ann.

my one and only~

i found someone who really cares for me and loves me for who i am.
i feel so happie every single day.
because you were always there with me.
you are the best i've ever had.
you've changed my life.
you always make me smile when i am sad.
i feel much better when i am with you. :)


i love you!



byezz bloggieeeeeee.

<3,
ann ann.

bad news~

for the past few days my fever didn't go off.
then my mum took me to the doctor.
unfortunately, there was no symptoms that caused me to have fever.
so i have to take a blood test.
that freaking needle gave me a shock.
i started screaming, my mum started laughing *so mean* and my grandma wanted to cool me down, but she make me cry even more.
my gosh.
it still hurts.
i don't even dare to take the bandage out. i don't want to see that hole.
OUCH!

so yeah.
i have to go and take another blood test again.
i hope i don't faint.

thank you for caring about me.
thank you everyone. :)
you all made me smile.
i miss you guys!


i miss you so much dear...
i love you! <3

sadness + happiness = ???

i'm terribly sick now.
i didn't even sleep the whole night.
and now i'm freezing cold.
even my hands change colour.
i look so pale.
my face is white in colour!
i look at myself in the mirror and thought i was a ghost.
funny rite?
i'm goin nuts!

this morning i felt so sick.
ished!
i made myself a cup of milo and sat on the sofa.
my grandma ask me to go out and have a walk with her so i agreed.
i went jogging and felt so much better when i went home.
while i was resting, my dad came down.
he looked at me. *scary!*
i was still wearing my socks so i bet he knows that i went jogging.
he said this "how come you look okay now?!"
i was so shocked. i said "i went jogging."
then he said " i don't understand you lah. maybe you just don't want to go to school."
i was so freaking mad i didn't answer him. then he sighed.
suddenly he was talking to me like normal before he went off.
my dad is so weird.
haha.

my mummy is taking me to see the doctor.
haiz.
so sick of going to clinics.

i want to go to jusco so badly!
i want to go to mph to buy Jodi Picoult's novels.
arghhhhh.
don't think my mum will let.

i got to go adi.


goodbye bloggieeeee!

18/8/2010. :)

i ♥ you!

<3,
ann ann.

my success!

i finish reading my novel!
such a success! :)
i feel so happy..
i enjoyed reading it and i love the ending..
it wasn't what i expected but i still like the way it ended.
now I'm aiming to buy another novel written by Jodi Picoult.
and i can't wait to buy my next novel!
I'm getting very addicted to novels after reading this one. :)

I'm starting to fall sick.
ished!
i shouldn't be sick at such a time.
i feel so frustrated because i always get sick.
it is all my fault for not taking care of my health.

and i can't wait for tomorrow.
i do not know what is going to happen, but i feel excited.
i think I'm mad.
am i??
i have mixed feelings now.
happy, sad, terrified and excited.
gosh.
i am mad!

i just wish everything will turn out fine. :)

this few weeks, I've been thinking of what i should work as in the future, where i should go and study and thinking how to earn money next year if i can work.
i want to become a singer so badly.
i want that to be true.
and i want to go to Australia to study.
Hillsong college.
i can learn singing there!
i also want to become a pastor because i want to share the happiness that God have given to me to other people who are in need out there in the world.
i want to reach out and bring revival to the country and to the whole wide world.
it sounds so hard to achieve right?
all i can do is believe, trust in Him and try my best to achieve my goal.
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. *i forgot what verse is this, but i know it is from the bible and it made a change in my life.*
about next year, maybe i can go and sing in a cafe.
i found one cafe which had such entertainment.
Station One Cafe.
i want to try it out.
i bet it would be a wonderful experience.
i am very sure of it.
i need so many wishing stars!
haha.
i know i can do it.
i just know it.
have faith :)

i just felt like blogging so badly.
so i am sitting here blogging all i want to say.
such a relieve.
i didn't know i will write so many things also.
amazing!
now i want to go and watch television.
i can't wait to blog again tomorrow.


byezz bloggieee...

<3,
ann ann.

i love my novel!

i spent most of my time reading my novel entitled keeping faith by Jodi Picoult.
it is a very interesting story and i am addicted to it.
hehe. :)








this is my book cover...
i love it so much!
teheee!

i want to buy more of her books!



byezz blogggieeeee~


<3,
ann ann.

ished!

my life has been so *erm* indescribable.

no mood to blog now.

byee my dear bloggieeee...

<3,
ann ann.

that horrible pain in me.

this is the only place where i can just let go all of my feelings and make myself feel better.
i still have that pain in my heart.
it won't go away.
why wouldn't it go away??
why???!!
going through life with this pain in me is so hard.
that relationship is done and over with.
what is wrong with me??!!
i just want to let go this feeling so badly.
it's not like he's going to bother about me anymore.
haiz.

life has been so complicated these days.
sometimes I'm happy, sad, and confused.
i sit there in class thinking about everything that i have went through.
i feel that i have destroyed my life by making the wrong mistakes again and again.
and i am falling in love once again.
feel that i should stop all these things.
but i can't.
I'm scared that I'll end up in the same situation again.

this is special post2!
she wants to tell you that she likes you.
it is so hard for her to do that.
she melts at every single thing you say to her.
you were the only guy which can make her smile nonstop.
she wish that she can share everything with you.
can she?
she is waiting.
waiting... waiting... waiting...
waiting for you.

Letters start with A-B-C, numbers start with 1-2-3, songs start with do-re-me, but love...love starts with you and me.

i love you~


byezzz bloggieeee...

<3,
ann ann.

The best day :)

i had many best days in my life.
but yesterday was awesomely amazingly and indescribable.
haha.

i went out to jusco yesterday with Zoe Benvait as it was our sort of merdeka day since the exams were over. *sort of*
we went to watch The Last Air bender in 3D! haha.
we went there to buy tickets and there was this guy saying
"3D not much effect only lah."
my gosh.
my wish lah what i want to watch!
ished!
neways, it was awesome.
my 3D specs kept on falling and it was so annoying!
haha.
then we went to play pump it up in capcom.
TEHEE!
and this is where EVERYTHING starts.
we went to it.
we had so much fun!
despite that we couldn't step on it properly.
so geram.
haha.
ahhh.
i dunno whether i want to say this here or not.
all i can say is this,


i think I'm falling for you.
love at first sight.


I'm leading worship tomorrow.
wish me good luck!
hehe.

i really think I'm falling in love with you.

byezzz blogieeee!


<3,
ann ann.

i'm sorry.

I'm really sorry.
for not being there for you.
i blame myself for everything.
you care about me so much but i left you alone.
I'm sorry my dear friend.
i hope you're fine now.
i really hope you ll just pick up the phone.
I'm so sorry.
i really am.
you were always there when i needed you.
but i wasn't there when you need me.
you have been such a kind friend all these years.
i feel so bad.
i pray that you'll be fine.
all my fault.
for not caring and being there for you.
my fault.


bye.

<3,
ann.

succeeded and relieved.

i have moved on.
no longer hanging onto something that could not last forever.
I'm happy now.
very happy.
:)


today's trial paper sucks.
cause i didn't study.
i regretted that i didn't start earlier.
but i am happy with my marks.
i got b for commerce and geography.
but for science, i have to wait till tomorrow for my paper one.
i don't think i can get an a already.
but i really hope i still can get an a.
tomorrow 's paper is history.
my gosh.
sure die wan.
once i open my reference book, i will start to fall asleep.
aiks.
i really hope i can pass and not fail.
good luck to me and all the rest of you out there.


this Sunday I'm leading worship.
i hope i can do well.
i pray that God will lead me throughout the whole worship.
I'm scared!
haha.


i've moved on. goodbye.


byezzzz bloggie!

<3,
ann ann.

A person that matters a lot to me.

hehehe. you made me laugh. :)

thank you so much.
i know i shouldn't be crying over him.
and i know i must control myself.
just give me some time. :)
thank you for always giving me hope.
i love you!


trials! x___x
the first two days of trials was crap!
i wrote my essay like mad and there are a lot of mistakes...
aiks.
today was maths exam...
paper two was so easy, yet i lost 4-5 marks...
ish!
i was really confident with myself...
paper one was harder...
i got two mistakes....
silly ones...

tomorrow is science paper 2, commerce, and geography *i think*.
haha... tomorrow will be the worst day of the week!
ahhh! i haven't started studying yet.
die die die. i think i better go now.

i love you.


byezzzz bloggieeeeee!

<3,
ann ann.

i miss you...

it was suppose to be our second month anniversary two days ago.
i wish i can have you back.
i just want to.
i miss you a lot...
you may never know, but i still do miss you.


i love you.



<3,
ann ann.

wish you were here.

i thought i have moved on.
guess not.
i still think about you.
everyday.
every night.
i miss you a lot.
i feel like slapping myself sometimes when i think about you.
i want to move on.
but i myself don't want to let go.
why why why??!!

today in school...
i was moody as usual...
i want to say sorry to my dearest friends :

• ZOE BENVAIT

• MISS SATAY

i am so so so sorry for always bugging you guys and complaining this and that.
i know you guys are sick about it,
but you all were really caring and thoughtful and have helped me overcome situations.
thank you so much! :)

to ZOE BEVAIT,
in school,
people think we're together.
haha.
so funny.
and we do stupid stuff together and i enjoy it.
haha...
we eat in class, we sing and sing, we chat like mad, and many more!
i hope we can be in the same class again next year.
you are weird and fun and awesome!
sitting with you in class makes me feel so happy.
you were always there when i needed you.
thank you so much!
muackkksss!
sorry for all the annoying moments when i talk about him a lot.
i'm sorry...
i love you!

to MISS SATAY,
we sit together in tuition,
we laugh and laugh at mr. kok and mr. yap's drawings,
we eat sweets!
i also share the same stuff to you.
it is annoying huh?
i am so sorry...
you were also there when i needed you.
i chat and laugh with you like silly people...
we listen to songs together.
so fun.
thank you for always being there for me when i needed you.
i love you!!!
muackkksss!

this is a special post.
today, she stared out of the window,
stared at a tree.
it use to have pink leaves,
after she broke up,
there were no more pink leaves.
she looked at that tree, searching for pink leaves.
she did not find any.
and she said this,

"there are no more pink leaves. there is no more hope."

she looked so sad. she was thinking about him on the inside.
then her friend that was with her said
"there are two pink leaves there!"

she looked at it and feel much better.
then she sang.
there was wind and it felt so breezy.
she looked at the sky,
wondering whether she can forget all about it.
she continued looking and went back to her place.
she still misses him.
she had to let go of someone whom she loved and cared for.
it was so painful on the inside.
whatever she does reminds her of the memories they had together.
it left a deep cut in her heart.
she wished that she could turn back time and change everything.
for your info,
she still misses you.

P.S. : WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME.


<3,
ann ann.

everything has changed

it has been about three months now from the day i knew you till now.
so many things have changed.
i can't think of anything.
my mind is always blank.
i didn't know things will turn out this way.
all i do is think about those days when we do things that both of us enjoy.
now all i can think about is that most probably i will be alone now, without you.
i wonder if i can still enjoy my life.
i just want to be with you forever and ever.
to some people, they think it is impossible.
to me, i have that faith and i believe that we can.
do you have that faith in you?

and you,
IDIOTIC BASTARD, BITCH, SLUT and BIMBO,
you screwed up my life!
thankssss a lot mannn.
you really need to get some smacking from me!
YOU FUCK OFF LAH BITCH!
please go and sort out your private life before you bother about other people's life!
you look innocent from the outside.
but inside, *MY GOSH* you are like a devil!
i know it is not right saying this.
but yeah,
you are acting like one.
MANIAC.

so now i have no feelings at all.
feels so empty inside.
and special thanks to Miss Satay and Zoe Benvait.
without you guys,
i think i will be dead!
you all have helped me in so many areas of my life.
i enjoy sitting beside you all in tuition and in class.
my darling besties~
thank you so much! :)

P.S. : I WILL STILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT. i love you.


byezzz bloggieeee.

<3,
ann ann.

to someone special

darling,
i don't even think that you'll see this post,
but i just want to let you know that i can't let you go.
i really want to patch things up.
and i really hope that we can be like last time.
happy and enjoying each other's company.
now things are different and complicated.
i have no idea whether we should continue this relationship or not.
i feel so sad and moody without you.
you have changed my life.
i just can't imagine myself without you.
i don't want to leave you.
everyday i wonder why is this happening.
i really need a wishing star now.
it is so sad thinking about what will happen next and the consequences.
i hope that whatever that happens next will be good news and not bad.
will we be together till forever?
i have that faith,
but do you?
i thought it could last forever and i am still hoping.
i am holding on tightly and i am not going to let go.
i do not know what are you thinking and what are you planning to do next.
i am happy enough if you just text me.

i stared at your picture today and saw a tear rolling down my cheek.
i am so heartbroken.
i wish you were here with me.
i do not want it to happen again!
i just do not want to go through it again.
not again.
please don't leave me.

P.S.: I WILL LOVE YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME FROM LOVING YOU.

you're favourite colour. :)

blah blah blah

eeeeeeeeee!
i am so mad now.
dun even think it is worth to be mad for.
wtf.
i really can't take it anymore.
argh!
i can just explode right now!
got such people on earth!
my gosh my gosh my gosh!!
i have no idea where i can release my anger now.
haiz.
goodbye.

your hand in mine.

gosh gosh gosh.
i am so freaking dumb lah.
it was so obvious and i acted like nothing happened!
argh.
i'm sorry.
i can't wait for the next time we are going out.
we don't talk much, but yeah, it was fun.
having you by my side melts my heart.
you've changed my life.
gosh. what can i do without you dear?

"i wont leave you dear...."

this is what you said.
really felt like crying.
*me and my crying lerrr. ish.*
haha.
i wanna go out with you again.

i don't mind if we don't talk.
i don't mind if my friends see me with you.
i just don't mind.
i just want to be with you,
and tell you this three words:

I LOVE YOU.


darling, i will forever and ever love you.


byezz bloggie...

<3,
ann ann.