my feelings was right.
we could not be together.
110% cannot.
life is so complicated.
i wonder why i met you.
now i am facing this, fighting this feeling on my own.
i am really glad that i met you.
as a friend.
but i kept my hopes too high and expected too much.
life is so unpredictable.
my last words were 'bye!'
and that was so sad.
i really hope we can keep in touch.
you don't even look like you want to talk to me.
did you find out about my feelings?
or i am just so sensitive?
i hate it when questions pop into my head.
questions which i could never answer.
i really pray that i will forget you.
i really hope so.
but i am still keeping you in my mind!
thinking of you, every minute and second.
my heart breaks when i think about you.
my heart was breaking to see you today.
i still remember, the first time we met.
the first time we chat.
i remember what you wore, clothes, shoes, and you're jeans.
i could never forget.
never.
i know i will be very sad leaving kl.
missing the awesome youth here.
missing you.
so i planned to keep myself occupied with friends.
i just hope my parents allow me to go out.
i do not want to sit at home and think of you.
to my friends and family, i am sorry.
i am sorry for always talking about him.
i know it is sickening.
but i don't know how to express my feelings.
i just don't know.
you might think i am crazy posting this silly stuff.
but these are my feelings.
my true feelings.
this blog is the only place i can type and express my feelings.
now i wished that you know how i feel.
so that i won't keep this feeling in me.
it is so painful.
but i am not sure whether to take that risk to ruin our friendship.
i am always laughing on the outside.
but on the inside, i am dying.
dying slowly.
i wish that i can wish upon a star.
wishing that my wish would come true.
i guess it is time to put all these things aside.
my last word, 'bye'.
my heart breaks.
to leave.
i will still love you.
but i am really trying to let you go.
i am really trying.
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