enough of this shit.

enough of this shit.
in the morning, i was extremely excited to go to church.
then everything turn out to be so bad.
i wished i could run away to somewhere else.
i don't wanna hear anymore screams.
i had enough.

i can't wait till all of this is over and i could leave this place.
leave and never come back.
the pain and sadness cannot be described.
everything that's happening makes me feel like there is no hope anymore.
no love, no joy, no peace, no serenity.
this place is supposed to be filled with joy and happiness.
but sadly, it is all the other way around.


she told me, "hey, why do you even bother ?"
i bother cause i care.
and it doesn't even deserve my time or care.
you always think that i will never be angry.
sometimes, i really do.
and i chose to keep it to myself.
is this worth it ?
are you worth it ?

i am so tired of this.
i don't understand and i don't want to either.
can you please just go away ?
i guess you are smart enough to know your limits.
i am not making my own conclusions.
i tried , i really did try to accept what is happening.
but i can't.
i am so sick and tired of this.
just leave me alone please.
i am none of your business.
just stay away.
i would really appreciate it.


thank you for dropping by.

sick of your lies. 

sick of my life. 

<3,
miss awesome.