shocking news.

shocking news.
well, what kind of news do you think this is ?
it is the worst kind.
i found out that i was selected for national service.
my heart fell.
yes, it literally did.
i was so anxious and comforting myself before the result was out.
but sadly i was picked.
reality did not slap me in the face so i decided to retype my identification card number again and again.
the same thing kept on appearing.
gosh. i could not believe it.
i thought i was dreaming !
i told most of my family members.
sort of actually.
my aunt told me it would be a great experience and it is maybe God's will for me to go there.
but hey, i need to be away for 3 months and i can do so much in three months !
i could have earned some money or do something else that i really love !
i would definitely be homesick.
terribly.
i guess i have to accept the fact and move on.
if it is really Go's will, i am waiting to see what are His plans for me.
i bet it would be spectacular!

school.
it has been boring without miss gorgeous.
it's like something is missing some where.
i know time will pass fast and i will see her soon :)
hope that she will enjoy her time there.
besides that, i have been laughing a lot in class.
it's as if we don't have an important exam coming up and we're laughing like mad.
is this a part of the journey or is this my laziness ?
i have not even started studying and as usual no one will believe me.
how sad can that be.
haha.
been eating a lot also lately.
i can't control myself.
i enjoy eating too much.
putting on weight is my fault and i so called wanna "lose weight".
goodness.

sometimes i wonder whether i met you by accident or is it fate ?
why is nothing happening ?
everything is so dull now.
it's like we're strangers again.
something which i wished it didn't happen.
but i can't blame you.
you're working and I'm studying.
maybe it's not meant to be.
i really wish we could work it out though.
sometimes i wonder if you stare at my pictures as much as i do ?
or if you think of me as often as i do ?
or even wish to text me as much as i do ?
I'm really scared to bother you.
and most importantly,
i miss you.
i really do.
don't ask me why.
even i don't know the reason.

just take my hand and fall in love with me again. 

waiting for miracles to happen. 

i am still waiting. 

that's all for now guess.
been very lazy to update stuff.
so yeah, thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you !

lots of love, 
miss awesome.