a world of my own.: lost in my own world.

lost in my own world.
where am i ?
i feel so lost.
sometimes, i just wish to sit at the corner of the room and cry and cry and cry.
for no reason.
i feel as if my own world is crashing down on me.

got my results back for my mid term exam.
well, as usual, it ain't satisfying.
time to put in lots of effort and time into my studies!
i did improve on some particular subjects though.
glad i passed all my exams so far.
and surprisingly, i passed my history exams!
that is so weird.
i presumed that i would fail that test.

i am now, sitting here staring into space.
well, kinda?
thinking about what i have done.
was it meant to be or was it a lesson ?
i am wondering whether i have made the right decision about things.
sometimes i just feel like whacking myself.
i knew there was something wrong somewhere.
but unfortunately, i have left it just the way it was.
dead.
it's my fault.
for falling for you.
for thinking that love was real.
for wishing that i could have you all to myself.
everything didn't turn out the way it was suppose to be.
sad to say.

went out with a close friend of mine during the holidays, here are some photos :)