exhausted!

exhausted !
my school had organized a cross country run which was only 3.7 kilometres.
thank goodness it was so short !
i aimed for top ten this year but sadly i didn't get it.
many students planned to run this year !
so in the end i got number 12 !
did my best :)
then i waited for miss gorgeous to come back to school and we went to eat and stuff like that.
we went to parade after the event, it seems that teachers told us it would end earlier..
YEAH RIGHT !
we were so bored and had nothing to do.
and when we did, we had to go home. =/
so yeah.
such a tiring day.

that's all for now!
will update soon :)
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you ! :D

 baby, i miss you.

<3,
miss awesome.

600 seconds.

600 seconds.
i watched the clock tick tock and just wishing time would pass faster during chemistry class.
i am sorry teacher, i don't understand what you are teaching us !
i miss my old teacher.
she made me love chemistry and now everything has changed and i hate  it so badly now.
school was so terribly boring until.... EVERYONE WAS CRAZY !
we laughed and chase each other around school like nobody's business !
WE WERE INSANE !
and we call ourselves form 5 when we act like we are only 5.
we were all eating and going psycho and my classmates think i am nuts.
cause i usually don't allow them to eat.
but who the heck bothers ?
IT IS FRIDAY !
thank goodness there were no teachers around, we would have gotten demerits.
haha.
we laughed like crazy and i even sat on the floor laughing non stop.
one of the best days in school i will never forget. :)
our school is having a cross country run tomorrow.
aiming for top ten again *cross fingers* .
here i comeeeeeeee :D

that's all for now.
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you !

<3,
miss awesome.

more than just words.

more than just words.
words can't show you how much i love you.
words can't express the love i have for you.
you are one in a million, always will remain that way.
i wish i can always be in your arms.
laughing away at random stuff.
being happy like i never used to be.
i have no idea what to write now.
i have never felt so in love before.
thank you for always being there for me.

you are the best chirstmas present i have ever had. <3

<3,
miss awesome.

dear miss gorgeous :)

dear miss gorgeous,
why worry so much ?
don't be !
just go on with it and see what happens :)
you are not destroying your life, don't think of it that way.
you are just writing pages of your life and when you look back, you will smile.
this is a life of a teenager.
I'll always be there for you :)

pinky promise. 

<3,
miss awesome.

i just hope that the smile on my face can mask all the pain.

i just hope that my smile on my face can mask all my pain.
i don't know what to do, i don't know what to say.
it's so sad for me to see her drown in sadness.
all i can do is watch and do nothing.
i don't know how to make her feel better, i don't know what i should do.
i still can't accept the fact that you said you have never loved her.
are you blind ?
she has done so much for you and all you could say is that she never loved you ?
you are a person who doesn't deserve my sympathy.
i don't sympathise you at all.
you deserved what you are going through now.
do me a favour to stop being a pain in my butt.
can't you just appreciate what she has done for you ?
just a simple thank you won't do you any harm.
will it ?
show some appreciation for goodness sake.
you are worthless.

so, let me update you about what had happened today.
i went to parade with miss gorgeous to have our lunch.
we ate in sushi king !
and we while we were waiting to pay our bill, guess who we saw ?
TEACHERS.
the first thing i thought of was, great we're doomed.
all the teachers know both of us and that ain't good.
we gave them a broad smile !
thank goodness we were not accompanied by any guys.
fuhhh.
we continually bumped into a lot of girls from our school.
so we asked them whether they have seen the teachers and so on.
they have met them, and those unlucky ones got scolding from the teachers.
but hey, what is wrong with us going there ?
we were only having lunch and going back to school !
mannn.
it's either they have nothing else to do or decided to spy on the students.
great , just great.
everyone is complaining now.
but i don't give a damn anymore.
it is over and done with.
so then we went back to school and it is time to do some exercise !
i wasn't looking forward to it.
i knew that it was going to be superb hot and I'll be lazy.
and i saw you.
it is already the third time.
i have no idea whether this is good or bad.
i just pray that the feelings won't come back.


valentine's day is just around the corner !
i can't wait :)
i love you lots biee.

so that's about it !
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you !

<3,
miss awesome.

a week of madness.

a week of madness.
so much of homework, so much to catch up on.
sickening, really sickening.
i am so lazy to study, lazy to even flip the first page of the book open.
i really regret taking science stream for what i want to be in the future has nothing to do with science.
guess i still have live with it.

i want to be a pastor in the future.
some people don't believe me, some think i am crazy ?
some even said that this kind of job can't earn much.
but hey, i am doing this for God and not for the sake of money.
money ain't everything.
i have made this decision because i am inspired by the people who are so passionate for Him.
i want to be an inspiration to others.
i want to help youths who are lost.
i know this is a hard thing to do but i am ready for it. :)

the weather is so hot !
i cannot take this heat. =/
i hope and pray that the temperature will reduce in time.

holidays are over.
time to go back to school and rot.
i guess it's better than staying at home and facing the computer all the time.

that's all for now.
i will update when i have the time :)
stay tuned !
thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :D

<3,
miss awesome.

i am greatly disappointed in you.

I am greatly disappointed in you.
How many times do you want to do this to me ?
Is this a joking matter to you ?
Are you testing me ?
or are you just trying to make my life more miserable?
Please stop doing this.
i can't take this anymore.
I really can't.

Thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you :)

<3,
Miss awesome.

what is love?

what is love ?
is it just a feeling ?
or is it more than that ?
how long will it take to understand the true meaning of love ?
i don't know.
I'm so confused of what is happening now.
i have no idea what's going on and what's going to happen next.
i hate the fact that things are getting from bad to worst and there is nothing i can do about it.
nothing.
this time, she is ready to let go.
let go the things that happened from 18 years ago till now.
she is ready to move on while i am stuck here, in the middle of no where, alone.
i have made up my mind.
but she won't fulfil what i desire.
it is the only thing i can do.
doing this breaks my heart the most.
i have never felt such pain, such misery in my life.
watching this happen is just breaking my heart.
i am not even speaking to anyone at home.
it's either a smile or a reply of a few words.
i used to think that this was good, the only way out.
it benefits both parties and will make everyone happy.
but why am i feeling this way ?
why am i feeling such pain ?
i don't know.
even i would like to know the answer to my own questions.
i understand her , i know what it feels like.
i know she has been through too much of this and she can't take this anymore.
she just can't.
is this time for me to move on or wait for a miracle to happen ?
i am still waiting for the answer.
i wish things could be better.
i wish for more laughter , more smiles, more joy and peace.
everything is broken now, broken into pieces that can't be mended anymore.



i have finished reading the book, "A Map of The Known World".
it was fantastic !
it's amazing how everything was described, how everything was put together.
the storyline is touching and it taught me to value my life.
and now i have read a quarter of this book called "I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have to Kill You".
it is kinda nice so far.
i hope it'll be fantastic !

 

school is crazy ! 

my classmates are nuts. 

i have no idea what to do. 

so yeah. 

they've made changes in the time table and I'm happy and satisfied :D 

so that's all for now. 

i have been blogging a lot in my mind now. 

so i won't be updating much. 

but do stay around and wait for my upcoming post ! 

thanks for dropping by and God bless all of you ! 

<3, 

miss awesome.