what can i do?

wow.
i've just realised how emo i am when i blog.
mann.
ain't something good.
HAHA.

so.....
HOLIDAYS HAVE JUST STARTED!!
yay yay yay!
but i am stuck with homework.
i actually planned to go jogging in the morning which never worked out.
and i also planned to study and it didn't work out either.
anyways, this holidays, my mum sent me to vocal classes!
i am so happy!
i always wanted to go for vocal classes.
and now my dream is halfway fulfilled!
so far everything is going well.
now the only thing i wanna do is to straighten my hair.
hopefully my mummy will allow. *fingers crossed*

so yeah.
nothing much happened i guess.
HEHE.

don't leave me alone. stay with me, please.

i don't know how I'd be someone you miss..

i don't know how I'd be someone you miss..
i really don't know.
i don't know why i can't get over you.
damn it!
and the best thing is i don't even know you!
i only know you always wear clothes that are quite small.
and it makes you look big?
HAHA.
and your smile is..
is..
is..
so perfect.
i know things are not going to work out.
i actually start to not bother about you anymore whenever i see you.
and i have succeeded!
but i cannot stop thinking about you whenever you're not around.
why is it this way?
why?
why can't this feeling go away?
i totally don't know.
HAHA.


now, push all these emo things away,
EXAMS ARE COMING!!
YIKES!
i know everyone must be studying right now, unlike me still blogging at 5.19!
i haven't really studied anything.
anything.
which is NO GOOD.
so yeah.
i am going to study soon.
God, please help me!
just want to blog something since my bloggie is like half dead.
HAHA.
after the exams, i will be the happiest person!
finally the stress is over and done with!
but there is still a long way to go and the exams haven't even started yet.
HAHA.

my imaginations running wild.

and i also plan to go jogging every morning during the holidays.
wonder if it will work out.
HAHA.
trying to lose some weight and stay healthy!
:p


i am sorry to those people i have kinda lost contact with.
i hope you understand. :)
i am superb busy nowadays, plus the things i have to prepare for the society camp.
being a leader ain't easy.
haix.
but God does everything with a reason.
there is nothing He would do on purpose.
and i love Him so much!
i <3 You, Jesus!

time to go now.
bye bye!

사랑해요 ♥

why..

why did this just happened?
i can't believe this.
everyday i long for your text and your calls but now you tell me this?
are you serious?
you must be kidding me mann.
you are so complicated.
why are you being this way?
do you still remember what you have said to me?
you said you will never leave me.
do you even remember that?
so what if we are far away from each other?
why does that matter so much?
i don't understand.
i really really don't understand you.
if this is what you want then suit yourself.
i don't wanna bother anymore.
time to say goodbyeeeee.

blah blah blah~

rubbish rubbish and RUBBISH!

qwertyuiop :D

i am bored!

so what so what so what?

i don't care i don't care i don't care.

i officially hate you.

i knew something is gonna happen.
i guessed it right.
YOU!
you told your friends??
like four of them?
oh my gosh.
why ??
nothing else to do?
HAIZ.
i am letting this feeling go away, starting from today.
i don't want myself to suffer later on.
if you guys wanna talk about it day and night or even 24 hours, i don't care. :D
i know it is hard to let go.
but that is the only thing i can do now.
no point longing for something that ain't gonna happen.
i rather stay single.
sometimes, it is just so lonely that you just want someone to give you love.
i felt that.
i am lonely.
but too bad for me, it ain't gonna happen and i am not going to keep my hopes high.
time to let go.


miss GORGEOUS, i love you lots!
you were always there when i needed you.
you always make me feel better, but i always choose to not listen.
HAHA.
no matter what happens, you will always be my best friend deep down in my heart. <3

i hate this.

i hate this.
i do not know why i feel this way.
can't it just go away?
please, just leave me.
these feelings won't leave me.
last week, miss GORGEOUS helped me to tell him the way i felt about him.
i really wanna thank her for doing so. :)
but it seems to be bad news.
guess he wasn't interested.
the sad part was i thought he was?
i wasn't really prepared to face this.
i don't know what to do.
i hate this.
i hate this so much.
i just simply wish that this feeling will go away because i know that we aren't going to work out.
i knew that from the beginning.
i have been sitting there looking at him, wishing you will just turn and look at me.
sometimes you do, and when you do, i just stare.
i wanted to smile but i forgot.
how funny is that!
every time i see you smile, i will smile on the inside.
your smile makes me smile.
the more i think about you, the more i can't stop thinking about you.
the more i can't let go.
i regret knowing who you are because you made me fall in love with you.
i regret knowing you when you don't know who i am.
all i am is just a normal girl living on this earth.
why is this happening?
can't this feeling just go away?
i don't feel like seeing you next week.
i don't know what will happen, what are the consequences, and how you feel about me.
oh my gosh.
definitely it is not going to work out.
but there is some hope in me.
that hope that won't go away.
that hope where it kept on reminding me that we can be together when we cannot.
i do not want to see you.
i do not want to know what the consequences are.
i do not want to see you're smile again.
i don't want to know how you feel about me.
i don't want.
why can't i stop?
i hate it the way i remember you were playing the drums.
i hate the way i remember the way you look.
i hate the way i remember the way you smile and melt my heart.
can i just forget you?


two more days. :)

i don't even know what am i doing.

i don't even know what am i doing.
i know there is no point thinking about you.
i can't even text you!
i don't know why i fell in love with you.
i really really don't know why.

i am currently drinking soup right now.
i made it myself.
i love it!
HAHA.

i have finished my homework!
i am so proud of myself!
now i have to deal with house chores.
ISHED.

i have changed the background for my blog.
and i am so in love with it!
it gives me a cool feeling and i feel so calm.
HEHE.

and i wanna talk about some people.
haiz.
am i like some popular person?
i don't think so.
then i do not understand why people like to copy what i do and bla bla bla.
i saw it and i was so frustrated!
what i do is original!
eeeeeeeeeeeee.
why why why?
can you guys stop?
JUST STOP PLEASE.


nine more days. :)

hello!

hello!
i am finally free to update something!
weeeee~
missed my updates?
and thank you for reading my blog people!

nothing much happened in school except my classmates are totally nuts!
they go crazy when the teachers are not in and of course, THEY ARE NOISY!
HAHA.
but this is what makes our class alive:)
I <3 4 CEMPAKA!

this few weeks, i don't even have the time to take a nap in the afternoon before going to tuition.
THIS IS BAD!
and i sleep very late at night.
then i end up being sleepy in school. *that ain't good either!*
HAHA.
my marks for the march test was okay?
i was satisfied? O_O
like i can do anything to change my marks!
but i really thank God that i didn't fail a single subject. :)

my friends and i are doing a moral project.
we became farmers??!!
HAHA.
in this project we have to plant plants *this sounds funny!* and after a few months we have to do an individual report on the project we are currently doing.
THIS IS HARD WORK!
i really and seriously hope that we can get this done and be done with it as soon as possible.
because i think this is a waste of time.
i repeat, WASTE OF TIME!
HAHA.

nowadays i have been falling for guys with wide smiles.
ISHED.
i hate this!
i think i am going crazy already.
i don't even know you.
i have never even talked to you before.
and i have a crush on you?
HAHA.
what a joke.
so yeah.
i am not planning to do anything.
i am just going to keep my mouth shut and do my own work. *don't think this is going to work*

studies are really killing me.
i hate it.
i kinda regret taking science stream.
it is so stressing.
i don't even understand what the teacher is teaching!
it is not the teacher's fault, but it's mine.
i don't pay attention in class, i eat in class and i sleep in class.
and yes, i have just told you my secrets.
HAHA.
i think in the middle of the year and the end of the year is going to be VERY STRESSING.
very very very.
i think i will just faint lah!

sometimes i wonder if i can ever trust you again.
sometimes i wonder i can tell you any secrets anymore.
i really treat you as my best friend.
but do you treat me the same way?
you are always hiding things from me.
making me feel that i am useless to you.
making me feel that i am nothing to you.
do i look like a person who doesn't care?
i really care about you.
but you are stopping me from doing so.
are you still my friend?
are you?

PS, miss gorgeous, sorry dude.
i love you lots!

ten more days to go!

i don't know who are you, but i love you.