my prince charming 2.

i am officially leaving you.

my feelings was right.

we could not be together.

110% cannot.

life is so complicated.

i wonder why i met you.

now i am facing this, fighting this feeling on my own.

i am really glad that i met you.

as a friend.

but i kept my hopes too high and expected too much.

life is so unpredictable.

my last words were 'bye!'

and that was so sad.

i really hope we can keep in touch.

you don't even look like you want to talk to me.

did you find out about my feelings?

or i am just so sensitive?

i hate it when questions pop into my head.

questions which i could never answer.

i really pray that i will forget you.

i really hope so.

but i am still keeping you in my mind!

thinking of you, every minute and second.

my heart breaks when i think about you.

my heart was breaking to see you today.

i still remember, the first time we met.

the first time we chat.

i remember what you wore, clothes, shoes, and you're jeans.

i could never forget.

never.

i know i will be very sad leaving kl.

missing the awesome youth here.

missing you.

so i planned to keep myself occupied with friends.

i just hope my parents allow me to go out.

i do not want to sit at home and think of you.

to my friends and family, i am sorry.

i am sorry for always talking about him.

i know it is sickening.

but i don't know how to express my feelings.

i just don't know.

you might think i am crazy posting this silly stuff.

but these are my feelings.

my true feelings.

this blog is the only place i can type and express my feelings.

now i wished that you know how i feel.

so that i won't keep this feeling in me.

it is so painful.

but i am not sure whether to take that risk to ruin our friendship.

i am always laughing on the outside.

but on the inside, i am dying.

dying slowly.

i wish that i can wish upon a star.

wishing that my wish would come true.

i guess it is time to put all these things aside.

my last word, 'bye'.

my heart breaks.

to leave.

i will still love you.

but i am really trying to let you go.

i am really trying.

my prince charming.

i am leaving ipoh soon.

guess i won't be seeing you again.

till next year i guess.

but it seems you're busy with you're career.

i have to stop keeping my hopes too high.

one day when i find out the truth, it is going to kill me.

i actually planned to tell you before i leave.

but if you know how i feel, i am scared you will avoid me.

but if it is the other way around, i would be happy till i can fly!

and now i decided not to tell you.

or maybe i will.

ahhhh.

i don't know.

my feelings are all mixed!

sometimes i feel like slapping myself.

seriously.

i am over reacting!

*sighs*

if you are not for me, i just pray that this feeling will just go away.

just leave me.

leave me alone.

i still love you.

you and me?

you're my prince charming, but i am not you're cinderella.

am i?

i just wish somehow that i will find out that answer.

i am going back to ipoh soon.

too little time to find out that answer.

it's just too little.

i hope and pray that it will work out.

i just hope so.

i love you.

my mixed feelings

well, guess what?

i fell in love again.

yes, again.

i have this terrible feeling in me that we won't be together.

it tears me apart.

or maybe i am just thinking too much.

or my feelings are true.

we may not be together.

ahhhhh.

what am i going to do?

sit here and do nothing i guess.

all i do is think everyday about those stuff.

oh my goodness.

i am thinking too much aren't i?

*sighs*

*slaps myself*

that feeling won't go away. it won't.

i love you!

my boredom. :(

oh my goodness.

i am so bored nowadays.

today i went to get bakery stuff.

going to make cookies again. :)

weeee~

i don't know what to blog now.

HAHA.

update more later. :)

oh my goodness!

i am so bored now.

oh my goodness.

feel like sleeping, but as usual i am lazy :)

and now i am watching some singing competition.

the singers are so good!

gosh.

i wanna be like them.

but too bad i don't have the confidence.

i just don't have it.

how sad.

i also wanna join competitions.

i want!

but if i join, sure got tons of stress.

maybe i'll just faint during the competition.

HAHA.

cause if i join, sure very tense between the contestants.

but it is my passion, i have to do it?

hmmmmm.

the contestants are doing so well!

my voice is not even like that!

HAHA.

i am so dead. :)

my holiday in KL!

my holiday here is so fun!

fun fun fun!

we had a lot of jokes and kept on laughing and laughing.

my uncle is a funny man. HAHA.

i had great times with my aunty and cousin.

and for the first time, i baked cookies!

it turned out well and also tasted good!

i'm going to make another batch of chocolate cookies!

weeeee~

next week, i am going to play pump it up in berjaya times square!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!

here i come mannnn!

i bet it is damn nice.

i totally can't wait.

i am also going out with Mae Gern again next week!

not sure yet about the day, but we are going out!

can't wait can't wait!

yesterday i went to church for worship practice.

it was awesome.

at first i was singing for fun, but then at the last minute a couple could not make it so i joined in!

wow.

it was amazing. :)

then we went to summit and played bowling :)

HEHE.

while waiting, Mae Gern and i went to play basketball.

we got better and better.

i still wanna play!

HAHA.

the guys took the lane first.

ah, before that i MUST tell you that you better not go there.

the service there really pissed me off.

i nearly gone mad!

actually i was already insane!

then Mae Gern, Xavior and me took another lane. :)

Mae Gern won!

wohooo!

my balls keep going in to the drains.

AISH.

then we went to eat! :)

i chat with the guys *some only* and they are SUPER friendly!

SUPER!

they are so much better than the guys in ipoh!

oh my gosh.

and they're not bad looking also :)

HEHE.

so the day ended like that.

today's worship went well.

awesome i guess :)

then once i reached home, i straight away on the laptop and started using it.

till now.

HAHA.

26/11/10 loves:)

today i went to watch rapunzel!

it was so nice.

it was scary, sad, happy and funny all together.

haha.

and i got to see Mae Gern! weeeee~

i may go out with her again tomorrow to a new shopping mall named EMPIRE.

sounds nice.

can't wait to go.

and i can't find pump it up!

summit didn't have it.

oh gosh.

i wanna play it so badly!

i wanna try out the latest and advanced version!

I WANT I WANT I WANT!

haha.

i am mad, crazy and happy at the same time.

haha.

today in summit, i saw like two hot guys.

one of them stared at me.

O.o

so hot i tell you.

so hot.

one was watching the same show as me and the other one was at the counter.

WOW.

awesome:)

then i came home.

so tired.

then we went to pasar malam.

bought stuff for dinner.

then i continued to online of course.

haha.

my neck has been pain for the past hour.

i think we are going out later to send my uncle home.

he is going back to Singapore.

then tomorrow i will be with my cousin!

my aunt will be going to a seminar.

aiks.

and there are people coming like 2a.m. in the morning.

neways, i plan to go out for shopping tomorrow with my cousin hoping to find that pump it up.

AHHHH!

i want!

hahaa.

oh ya!

i wondered if i have lost weight.

i look thin in the mirror.

i am not boasting.

or maybe it's the mirror's problem.

haha.

but i certainly hope i have lost weight.

i haven't been doing exercises lately.

it always look like it's gonna rain and i am so lazy to go out.

i smell food now!

bet it tastes nice too.

weeee~

i am so hungry.

and i am going to eat now!

bye bye!

-written by: lil angel/miss awesome -